Love is a simple thing, either you love or you don't

2009-12-23T00:24:00.002+08:00

It’s finally dear dear’s birthday(ytd)

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HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MINGXING LAOGONG
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS^^

although we always quarrel over trivial matters that can cause us to break up
and my bad attitude, behaviour and jealousy always turns u off
but im really glad we had stick thru it till today^^
im really sorry for all those times, but i want u to know that
you are the most beautiful and wonderful thing that had ever happened to me
and i can’t leave a day without you, because you’re too precious to me=)
please trust me always as i will always be there for u, and everything i say and do is of my deepest feelings for u =)

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we had bbq at dear dear’s house downstairs bbq pits
had a blast. although there were couple of unwanted people that i dun want to see
but no choice, dear dear biggest ma, birthday boy =)
hehe, a lot of them even smashed cake @ dear dear
like KarLiang, YongMing, BoonTeck, Daniel etc
that STUPID BOONTECK go take my cake to smash dear dear!!
but i take my revenge, hehe =)
had a blast, although there were moments of loneliness, silence and apprehensive
hope everything will be alright for u, gal…

Presents bought for dear dear include : 1 casual cloth
1 outing cloth
1 bermuda
1 laptop cleaner &
1 love scrapbook (given as belated XP)

o levels ending

2009-11-06T01:44:00.002+08:00

weee~
O lvls ending soon!
just left one more paper on 11 nov
i'm alr 90% freedom!!
left 10% more to total freedom
shopping, relaxing and sleeping here i come!!
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nothing much happened these few days
beside that i keep studying and sleeping late
now i'm just relaxing~
seriously nothing to blog about le
maybe moving to tumblr like mandy
but not sure yet
because blogger have too much of my beloved memories! ^^
signing out for now!

recollecting my past memories to the present

2009-09-30T16:43:00.002+08:00

i read a certain sweetheart's blog ^^
and came to realise a fact
that nothing we have now should be taken for granted
and our choices..
the choices that we made will definitely decided on where we will go,
what will happen to our lives and people around us..
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hey sweetheart, you know im referring to you right^^
i did ask you to come to read my blog that is meant for you
(well at least this part xp)
i know life have become really complicated for you
the choices that you made had turned out the wrong way
leading you to the wrong path
even though it had become a mistake, you might(or might not)
regret it but im sure that there were some good memories
came along with it, its could be a blessing in disguise
you know that Low Kay Hwa books (aka thats my brother you know XD
kidding only) have terrible and sad tragic endings
that will fill people with regrets and tears~
i dun want to see it happen to you
i want to know you are safe and happy when im reading your life story
( which im about to read when you tell me you life story soon right XP)
so promise me that you will be happy
and dun ever let yourself drown in the pool of despair and sadness k?
a person live better when they are fill with positive thoughts
trust me^^
love you and take care ok

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Happy 16th Birthday to Daniel Soh!!

he is currently watching movie with his brothers XD
ok, you are a year older so make sure no more being childish
which means no more bullying and disiaoing me and liliang you hear!
XD make sure u stay cheerful always, dun be a grumpy old grandpa
be young and free spirited ok! best of luck for everything ahead!!

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school is making me feel exhausted recently
when can i have an actual break?!

cant wait for my burden to be lifted off my shoulders
i been having those "cant explain /confused feelings"
hope it ends soon

nearing to O levels

2009-09-28T22:34:00.003+08:00

sometimes you stop to wonder
about things in life, people around you and that ever small details of things
but when you finally decided to stop and treasure them
will it be all too late...?
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Prelims are over and so is the Graduation Day'09
this means is getting nearer and nearer to O level's!
and my mum is nagging me ever single day~ -.-
*torture*
it means i must start to BUCK UP
especially after my prelims results that was released today..~
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sat 26/09
went to 'study' with Mandy and WeiLi
but from the intended place of NUS changed location to
AGNES CHAIN'S HOUSE XDD
its been so long since i last visited her house!
played and laughed like siao~
had so much fun,
even went to West Coast Park for the first time O.O
not forgetting the Pukka ice cream that i ate twice
a day worth adding to my memorable days collection =]
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on Graduation day, i learnt about a hard reality and truth..
with the same amount of happiness given to you,
the same amount of saddness will bestow upon you too...
i really hate this-
you can have the biggest grin spread across your face
but it can be so easily taken away with just one sweep....
y must i suffering this for two straight days~
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disappointed with you

2009-09-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

i really dont understand...
im really really thankful to have u as my friend..
i really really love what you did for me plus just having you around
but y do i have a feeling that u dun treat me as a friend...
i guess its not a feeling but the truth....
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currently now @ dear dear's house
ltr going down to hougang with him to do some work
until 3/4 plus in the midnite..
guess there goes my beauty sleep XDD
cant believe tat my parents actually allows me to go..=)

today went to PS with 20 to buy low kay hwa books!^^
finally bought To Forget You & You are here!
now i left about 3 more books to buy to complete the collection XDD
agreed to buy two different books so tat 20 and i could exchange to read
on the way to PS, really talked about a lot of stuffs
expecially Love, Friends and Regrets
i still found out about some shocking truth tat i found unreasonable to accept
all i hv to say is i wash my hands off this matter le~
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hehe officially 15 months and 2 days with dear dear le
and still going strong~

my birthday celebration!

2009-09-09T02:14:00.006+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16TH BIRTHDAY TO ME^^
im finally 16! older and older each day!
dunnoe if i shld be happy or sad!

I want to thanks all those who had wishes me happy birthday in facebook, via sms, celebrated with me or face to face. People like: My family, MingXingLaogong, X56 plus joyce, Liliang, the Guys, Miranda, my Pri Sch friends and many more^^

had the greatest birthday celebration in my whole life
[well, beside the time when i have to celebrate my 1 yr old birthday,
it's special to all, since its the first year you arrived on earth]
anyway, i celebrated 4 days in a row,
well, actually it shld be counted as 3 days in the row!

due to the guys: KL, Lionel, YM & Daniels' 'N' level exams,
we decided to celebrate on 5th sep, sat!
it was the beginning of a great birthday celebrations!
LiLiang, KarLiang, Daniel, BoonTeck, YongMing and MingXingLaogong
celebrated with me at orchard cinileisure lvl 8 kbox!! =DD
IT WAS THE BEST!! [ps. lionel couldnt make it T_T]
They made great efforts to make everything wonderful and surprising for me^^
They bought 3 BIG Presentsfor me!
i had to carry these three big bags of presents home..!!
i will always rmb the time spend @ the kbox!
we were super hyper the whole time! dancing and singing! XD
had buffet and hilarious times with goofy moments!!
now whenever i hear "精舞門", i will think of Ym's dance,
when i hear "Gee" and "Nobody", i will r,b Kl looking over 300 pages
just to find these songs and only me singing these koreans songs, leaving me breathless
They really surprised me with the cake when dear dear popped in!
I loved the laughter and joy we had in that room!!=DD
we even __________, making __ the joke of the day
Love you guys lots! and thanks so much for all you have done!i really really appreciate it!

6th sep, sun
i went to sentosa with my family!!
weee!! after promising me for so long [fyi. 2-3 yrs]
planned to go alot of places!!
we went to Images of Singapore, Dolphin Lagoon and UnderWater World
i know these places are common and seem uninteresting
but to me, its been ages since i visited it
and i really wanted my whole family to revisit as a part of another great memory
signifying that our family are still having strong bonds despite all of our growing age =)
although the most disappointing is that i couldnt
sit the Sentosa Luge and skyride!! T_T
that was my most anticipating event for the whole day!
haiz... well bcuz of this went on a stubborn strike with my family
was foolish but couldnt control it! =( sorry!

7th sep, mon
wanted to celebrate with a bunch of friends but couldnt
due to lack of money to treat them T_T
and aso wanted to celebrate with capable 5
but most of them wasnt free to make it...
haiz... disappointed but no choice
so went to find laogong at his house, slack and ate KFC
[forgot to mention to him that im still sick XP]
didnt do much for today, but was the best to spend time
with my laogong^^

8th sep, MY ACTUAL BIRTHDAY~
celebrated with X56 plus joyce, family and laogong! =D
had lunch with X56 plus joyce @ 18chiefs, tiong!
although it was just a simple lunch/outing
i had the same amount of fun with them^^
they bought me present, did a GIANT birthday card and surprise me
with a custom cake!!
OMG! it must have cost alot for them T_T
the cake, the card plus the present!
total is not cheap!
i shld hv lend them my photo printer to cut cost for them!
the 18chiefs' staff are so friendly and warm
they actually sang birthday song together with my friends twice!
[there was a reason to sing twice]
will loved to go back there to dine again!^^
when cass and hm said they bringing bck ice cream
i really tot it will be chocolate ice cream
but they appeared with CAKE and Staffs?!!
OMG!!
SUPER SURPRISE! REALLY!!
Thanks so much gals!! even though it was simple, it was the best joy i can recieve as a present! LOVE YOU GALS SO MUCH!! i really really appreciate it!

missing the moments

2009-08-01T01:50:00.002+08:00

hehe
its been a long time since i blogged
so once i blog, i blog with a new skin =)
hope u guys like it

fri's empowered programme had finally started
today i realised that i seriously miss the times from before
being able to be a part of something that is happening

The Recollections
Girls' Brigade CCA time
NDP flag bearer

i wish i could relive the moments in the past
but as i just mention, it is the past tat will only be a memory

Things to annouced louder here in my blog is

O levels are coming very soon and CL O lvl is over!
Its alr our 13 months together le!
Cass, HeiMun and Mandy's birthday are over( hope you guys had fun)
went to swimming with Bel, Liang, Jas, Mandy and many more
I'm officially a D.I
Mandy brought me to my FIRST NDP experience at MARINA BAY
I have officially step down from prefect and became a senior councilor XD

there are still some things i just dun get...
i dun want ________ to be like this...
but i just have to stay and wait....

too sick...

2009-06-12T16:22:00.002+08:00

i got admitted to A&E today at 1+am...
not a gd thing to be admitted inside...
im not that keen to stay in the hospital anymore...
it a experience that i dun want to live thru again...
stay there all the way till 430am den went bck home...

now i really noe wat family really means
they will sacrifice everything for you because u r family
and they wont need anything in return
they will always stay beside you
especially when u need them the most
they wont leave u for anything.. thats what true family is
and i so grateful to have this kind of family with me
i really love them lots, and nothing can replace the place they hold in my heart

changes around

2009-06-11T23:32:00.008+08:00

talk about long
i havent blog for quite a couple of days already
School holidays have started; Chinese O lvl paper 1 & 2 are over; & of coz Laogong is BACK!
so many things had past

couple of FUN and EXCITING times i had during the break

After O lvl paper : went out to Healthzone with Mandy, Joyce, Heimun, Gwen and Cass
3rd june: Yong Ming's birthday so went to play pool and KTV with Liang, BoonTeck, Laogong, KarLiang,Daniel and of coz YongMing, had the time of my life =D
5th june: My bro and i went on a movie marathon around vivo all the way till midnight =D
6th june:went to chalet at downtown east^^ went to WildWildWet and Escape too, ended with a BBQ at the nite
8th june: went swimming at sarah condo with sarah, nic, joanne and liang, at nite went to east coast to dine with mx's family, had a feast

but it isnt all fun and play the whole holi
gt sick alot of times
it was sian sian sian!!!
word of advice to everyone : TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF
hey people, dun forget that Fathers' Day is coming this sun
rmb to celebrate this special day with all your beloved fathers!
for the time being im gg to end the post
returning with pictures in the next post=D

our 11th month

2009-05-17T22:43:00.006+08:00

today is our 11th month anniversary
but dear dear not around to celebrate with me
*sobs*
had been calling long distance call to talk to him
i really miss him alot... still hv to endure for another 7 days
before i can see him again...

anyway
exams had finally ended last thurs
phew!
a big relief
now will be concentrating on CL tat is coming on 1st june
scary~ its only less den one month away
MUST WORK HARD!!!!

finally went out on break on last wed, thurs and fri
with liang, nicole and mandy!^^
wed went to orchard with liang^^ even took neoprints
its been so long since we took together
plus this time didnt make any mistakes in printing the neoprint *phew*
u can view the photos at liang's blog
too much photo lazy to post
LiLiang's blog
thurs went out with nic and liang
at tiong park and tiong^^
had tons of fun!
especially with exams out of our heads
at least for den
fri went out with nic, liang and mandy
went orchard with nic and liang to settle some chores first
before heading down to riverwalk where we had our dance lessons
with mandy and her friends.
was so much fun XD
finally at least able to learn some dance^^
after dance went to central
where we dig around for food XD
there is a famous candy shop there named Sticky
u cant believed what u r abt to see in the next pic

this is actually the candy that was made first

big rite!
cant imagine eating tat
haha XD

satwent to play with baby ^^
haha well at least she had fun
while i was seriously tired
the best thing abt sat was i finally had my first "free" facial treatment
at New York Skin Solution( i mean literally free)
was a fun yet bothering experience (bothering was after the treatment)
even had steamboat after tat^^
nice watermelon freeze!
sunbest weekend so far
went out with my family to vivo
main purpose :to return starhub scv box
but did more den that
went to hv a massive shopping spree at daiso where no matter big or small,
its ALL $2
next stop was challenger and GV
before heading to best denki to survey on tvs
omg! i didnt noe tat great sg sale strt le
valerie really has alot of nice nice clothes!
but i must restrain myself from buying
even if my mum allows me
the best about today was the walk at Henderson Wave
with my parents
i really hvent been up there for a very long time
its was nice to be up there again
took alot of nice photo
but since i hvent edited it yet
i will post the next time XD(especially with the nasty pimple i hv, i gt to edit)
dinner at sakura (or something like tat)
was not that satsifiying for me
since i ordered the wrong thing
overall average for me
the night ended with a walk around ikea
where we took abt the new furniture we all want to buy
(thinking of moving house)

i realised quite alot of things today:

everyone has it difference

they like diff things and think differently
even families are like tat too
they all might hv different opinion over something
but they are still family

2.there are many injustive in the world

i saw a show today while we were getting ready to head out for dinner
it really shows how one sided we can be
where we only noe the surface of things
and yet another part of it is been covered by lies
and money are used to shout people up
even in places we might nv imagine and the people involved in it

3. jealousy of human

i realised the jealousy appeared in everyone we noe
from young to old
one time when i send baby to sch
when she saw i had a handphone on hand
she immediately went to take her toy phone
when in her sch, she saw a boy showing off his new watch to the teachers
baby quickly asked ah ma where was her new watch
and turn abit sour face.
even babies hv jealousy towards people
tats why every humans want what others hv..
this cycle can nv stop

"there is no guarantee in life"

the long awaiting

2009-05-12T22:06:00.002+08:00

i cant imagine myself staying in the dark room
waiting for days and days to pass by without u...

dear dear went bck to China...
damn karliang... y must say after he go in i will cry...
basket... gome dear dear... i really gt cry...
i miss you so much...

went to eat popeye with dear dear
and took pics

i want to take another pic when u come bck k
love you lots
come bck soon k....pls be safe n sound....
or else i will cry everyday... =(

its gone

2009-05-10T14:42:00.009+08:00

im prepared to flunk my midyear exams
mainly bcoz i didnt much study (but i still did ok)
and the papers were really hard
the only papers im confident in passing are
History and SS
hope at least gt a B for humanities

ytd went to watch Star Trek
with my brother at tiong
man.. forgotten how small tiong cinema is
OMG! star trek is amazing!! nice btr den xmen actually
lucky went to watch star trek with bro instead of ramen girl
went to shop for Mothers' Day present
haha didnt forget to say

Happy Mothers' Day to all mothers
in the world
message especially to my dearest mother who raise me up
hope u like the bag bro and me bought for u ^^

on fri
went out with Boonteck, Karliang, Daniel, Lionel, YongMing, Laogong ang Liliang
bcoz laogong gg bck to china this coming tues..
for two weeks...T_T
gg to miss him like hell.....
haiz....
anyway went to watch Xmen at vivo
dear dear even bought me a soft toy ^^
now i hv two precious soft toy at home

my bear bear and bunny angel^^ (gt wings behind the bunny de)

thanx laogong, u always know how to make me happy =)
i even bought a bear for liang for mothers' day
well.. she is my " mom"
haha, glad she love it=)
dear dear even gt his wow game after waiting for so long XD
dinner at the henderson coffee shop there
ate quite alot lo
haha
daniel can be a great father
baby really like playing with him XD
everyone stayed at laogong's house before gg

haha heres a video
at laogong's house
although hv any funnier one but wont be posting it XD
had lots of fun on fri
after nt gg out for so long ^^

i realised tat it cant be changed now..
we hv lost it... and there is not turning bck..
how i wish things had nv changed between us all..
gdbye to the relationship we once had..

ps. dear dear must come bck safe and sound k.. dun forget im always here waiting for u =)
love you lots

mixed up

2009-05-01T18:19:00.005+08:00

OMG
just finished watching ep 11 of ToGetHer...
super touching...
seems like next ep will be the last ep for the show le!
i cant to watch it
but of coz after exam den can
started exam le
not confident in myself at all
everyone jiayou!

my emotions are mixed up
what kind of emotion shld i feel
sometimes i feel in... sometimes im just out...
have i really lose it all..
someone tell me.. im all mixed up..
i wondered what is like to have it all back...
when i disappear they wont remember mine.. ill fade away till someone takes my place

lazy..

2009-04-26T01:39:00.004+08:00

hey mandy soon: i know u are smart enough to read this, so here goes, i may not really totally understand ur troubles but i want u to know u dun need to face it alone or dump it away by urself. telling us that u r leaving ur troubles behind now, means that it was hard for u to leave behind in the past...so i want to be there for u ok

just went to watch 17 again with laogong!^^
on 24th april
to bu chan our 10th month anniversary
was so meaningful

lazy to continue blog
i noe its lame XD

when you are young, everything feels like the end of the world, but it's just the beginning

wet season

2009-04-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

its the time for the wet season in singapore now
u will noe it when u see those flying ants
flying around ur lights
i knew it when i found the dead flying ant tat flew in my cup of chocolate milk
-_- was super gross as i almost drank it

mid year exams are coming and i still hvent study
dunnoe y my mood for studying hvent come yet
it btr come fast
or im gg to flunk every test

17th April 2009
it was 10th month anniversary ^^
we had plans but den laogong gt down with fever
so we postponed our plans till further notice
was slight fever but den it went up T_T
worry me like siao
hope he gets well soon

now no more cca for all sec4 express le
=( kind of miss cca time
but den prefer studying XD
well i can still see my juniors like nataling, yuxian and xueting
oh ya, i want to say congrats
to all the girls who had passed their drill tests
^^ congrats on ur hardwork
and to those who didnt quite make it
press on k, cause i noe u will get it sometime
and i promise i will be there to help
if u gals need me k^^

im getting sleepy...
time to get to bed
tooties~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE

2009-04-15T21:56:00.007+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY
TO NICOLE!!
haha finally sixteen le! i gt my birthday bash from you too^^
hehe no pic of nic! dun like to take photos T_T
haha but gt her birthday cake photo!
hope u like ur present from liang, joanne, sarah and me
although its a little *ahem*
bear with it k XD dun xiang wai k^^
enjoy ur privelege of being able to watch NC16 show le

so to update for my last outing
Sat Easter Outing to CHC

was invited by Mandy to go watch a drama at her CHC [aka City Harvest Church]
at Sg Expo
of coz had tons of fun with Liliang, Mandy and her cell group
even saw unexpected people
like Daron, my bro's friend
disiao'ed Liang by saying 'crush crush crush'
XD [only the three of us noe]
haiz...
didnt noe tat HM, Cass and Gwen went on fri
missed a outing chance with them
currently missing an outing with the five of us...=(
well at least i had my long awaited outing with the three of us ^^

MY BELOVED TANLILIANG =)

MANDYSOON WITH LOVES
last and definitely the least, THE THREE OF US
[aka BLUE GIRL, ORANGE GIRL AND WHITE GIRL^^]

actually still gt a funny video where when we taking photo
accidentally took video
bt well... was threaten not to put on blog ='( sadded..

shall we end the post by re saying Happy Birthday To Nicole
tooties~

p.s im spending my peaceful and joyful times with laogong everyday^^
love him lots! coming to 1 yr le! hurray!

woah

2009-04-10T00:12:00.004+08:00

man
i didnt realised tat i hvent blog in more than a month
well.. couldnt touch com for a very long time
when my aunt and uncle came to stay over at
my house for the past two weeks
plus coming home late
and sleeping early cut off my com time

so wats been happening lately
well

i did some assessing for my juniors' drill with xinyan mdm, saw mrs yeo in her new sch and ms shirley chua too on 4th april
bbought a new fish tank with lots of fishes inside of coz at laogong's house
gt injured on my thumb tat made me hard to write

nth much to say for now
tooties..

sick..

2009-03-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

man....
hving girl problems -.-
end up reported sick ytd...
but the stupid GO keep refusing me to report sick
i just stand up jiu pain le
still dun let me go home
ask me go sick bay rest an hr see how
wa.. rest an hour aso no use w/o medication de ar
spent almost 2 hr with joanne in sick bay toking
thanx jo! for pei'ng me^^

laogong pei me go home after tat^^
yay!!
haha! even came to rest at my house
while i entertain liang when she came over
hey liang.. trust me everything will be alright de k
love you
spent the time rotting at home..
oh ya must aso say
MANDY: im super sry i couldnt pei u in mon! T_T
i end up ps u alone!! i will bu chang u de k, and aso for ur pe shirt
still saving in progress, trying all kinds of power possible.. hope can remove

today finally went to bm to see the doc
even met up with joanne, karliang and liang
laogong was alr with me le
ate and slack at mac before gg to the polyclinic
first time go abit gon gon XD
luckily gt laogong to guide me along
[first time noe that if u pull someone eye lid down, can see whether u pale anot]
gt MC and medication
went to laogong's house and rest
and now slacking at home!

thinking of events to do tmr..
decided to only spend $2 per day and nothing more
so can save more inside my bank^^

the only one who can save u.. its urself..

DI course

2009-03-02T14:51:00.002+08:00

sat DI course was rather tiring but fun!
lasted long, but it seems like time flies when u hving fun
{although i was counting down to the mins to release XP}
did learnt tat it is more into drill than wat i expect^^

i heard rather some bad responses
obviously when i heard it
i was rather angry and disappointed
i wanted so much to scold on the blog
but den i just realised tat wat gd will it do even if i were to scold
its no point
so i decided to not say anything

nth much to say abt today
sch sch and more sch...
ime to relax for awhile..^^

Liang at my house over night TODAY!!

2009-02-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

yo! LiLiang in the house tonight!^^

she toning at my house tonite and pei'ing me tmr
to GBC^^ yay~
she's such a gd friend! plus Joanne too^^
woohoo!!
first time someone slept over at my house!!
too bad its not him..=P

All photos are taken only 1 hr away!! ^^
wee~ hving so much fun with her now XP
gg to lights out soon! bye

a new blogskin and a new post

2009-02-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

woohoo~
hey everyone! im bck
edited and changed into a new blogskin!^^

OMG!
srsly did not realised i hvent blog for so long!
well... abt 1 month had passed
obviously alot of things happened!

Two Major things that happened was
1) the most depressing news : laogong will be gg in ns soon... :( ~~how i was i can strike tat away~~
2) the worst news students can ever hear:i almost didnt manage to take Olvl examination this yr....[was resolved]

imaging hving to hear these two news at the same month!!
i was gg to die from crying too much and worrying too much!
wonder how long more i can be with him...
i will really miss him so much..

nth much happened today except long sch hours
and ALOT OF HW T_T
oh ya! gt gd news and bad news!
first: i passed my DI, bad news: i gt DI course this sat from 8.30am-6pm
torture!! arghhh!!

6 & 7 month anniversary

2009-02-17T21:13:00.005+08:00

Happy 6 & 7 months anniversary
on 17th Jan & Feb

on that tuesday morning was the time when everything

started... a lovely bright morning

love you since den and till forever!

after CNY

2009-01-28T23:17:00.003+08:00

Replies

Gwen- haha!! you now den see ar^^ obvious is for u and only u!
the 16th year old girl le! haha! who ask u nv zilian
last year put another one this year this one lo XP
next time zilian for me la k XDDD love you

Denise- i cant believe i saw u too!! some more so late le leh XD
IM SMILING JUST FOR U =]]]]]]]]]]]]] ^^ love you!

LiJoo- hey will relink u^^

Heather- u super funny lo! say u link me at ur blog but
den nv leave ur own link here how to link u XD
have to go search ur link myself XD

CHINESE NEW YEAR has come!!
HAPPY CNY TO EVERYONE^^
make sure try to get as many angbao as possible!
go friends house to bai nian aso! the best ar!! XD

anyway today wake up late la..
took cab down just for the prefect meeting...
really sian liao la...
reinterview sec4s.. step down on july... but still need to wear tie everyday...
omg...
haiz... the worst way to start a 3rd day of CNY morning..
lessons were quite so so la..
nth much to tok abt for today..
shld i tok abt CNY?
NAH!! haha^^
think i just stop here lo
tmr still hving couple of tests
actually i alr quite hoping can quit
but den we shall leave it to fate
but as long as u there den im there
u not den im gone too^^

there is a saying yesterday is history...tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift..

apology

2009-01-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

i read wat u gt to say le

actually i aso want to apologise to u

i noe i was too harsh on it

but you are right

i did change quite alot

especially when i gt together with laogong..

im trying to change to a btr me..

as in make time for all the diff groups of people
so i hope you will accept my apology to..
to my best friend forever^^

school is getting ridclous

2009-01-21T19:27:00.002+08:00

omg!
wat the hell is gg on with wats happening in sch
and with friends
first all the rules in sch is getting stricter and stricter
and secondly i found out truths tat i dun want to noe
i srsly hv to clarify something

to anyone it matters to( and i guess those people noe who i refering to):
is not tat she is flirting
u want to blame, blame me
i was the one tat ask her for help and aso ask her to join me when we all go out
she only tagged along after many pleads
i dun want to be the only girl in the group
fine!
im gg to say it more blunt
when mingxing laogong goes out with karliang, lionel, boonteck and etc
he definately will ask me along
its nth wrong when i go out with the bunch of guys
but i hv no one to tok to -.-
its only me alone a girl!
even mingxing laogong will aso tok to his friends ar
so i always ask her
but den she REFUSED U NOE!
coz she dunnoe any of the guys!
it was after a super long 2 MONTHS!
den when she gt to noe karliang and lionel more
before she decided to go out with us once lo!!
how she noe karliang and lionel is actually serious none of ur business
is not ur control in who they or liang want to make friends with

making friends with guys wrong ar!!

must we all be sexist on wat kind of friends we make with?!

im sry if im saying too harsh

but liliang is my best of best friend

tat been thru thick and thin with me

even if im mia'ing lo!!

u guys dun hv GUY friends meh?!

nv stick around with them meh?!

we only go out with guys on special occasion

not like every day stick around with them la!

pls MIND your words!

u noe how words can hurt people ma?

i regard u as my best friend especially.....

im rather disappointed....

HAPPT SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY TO LILIANG!

2009-01-18T21:10:00.003+08:00

TanLiLiang!!^^
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY!!!
not bad sia! so fast 16 le! how does it feel to watch NC16 movie ar?!
haha! man! years go by quick!
although u r 16 le! but u still not tat mature yet XP
haha kid de!!
love you always X333

Gwen Gwen's Birthday

2009-01-16T22:10:00.005+08:00

GWEN GWEN!!^^
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY!!!
u are our da jie da leh! XD so must be more mature le!! XD
haha! ps cannot celebrate with you today
i promise to bu chang ni next time k? did cass & hemun went out with u today?
dun always go watch NC16 de movie ok? XD
love you always X333

strt of a new year

2009-01-10T15:40:00.006+08:00

NEW YEAR 2009 HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!!!
ps now den update blog! XD
busy over the sch days
so many things happened when sch reopen

anyway
tok abt NEW YEAR COUNTDOWN
as usual! went countdown with Liang, Laogong, Boonteck, YongMing.Karliang & Daniel
si BoonTeck dunnoe y keep insisiting on gg vivo de
wanted to go Mount Faber instead de lo
aiyo...
end up at Vivo (again)
super crowded lo
at least still able to get up to 3rd floor
Liang & me super sian la
nth to do de
only the boys had more fun den us..
so slack slack before countdown
although this time of round
countdown not tat fun
well dun want to elaborate on it
those tat with us noe la
so blah blah blah~
went up to Mount Faber to see the most wonderful view!!
stupid boonteck!! let us miss it!!
so blahblahblah~

first day of sch wasnt tat bad
get to know the class and all
plus second day and third day all abot bonding nia
so no real lesson yet
currently now in 4e2
well in this or 4e3 class will be much btr den staying in e1 class
(no offence)
new principal isnt all tat bad
almost like mrs yeo
sch now even more strict which is like super boring too..
makes me more want to leave the sch asap
of coz need to take finish my O lvl first
im srsly missing laogong now.... T_T
haiz..

i know you care but den its my choice on whether to continue or not
i know wat im doing
and im not regretting
so y cant u stop blaming him alr...
its not his fault..
is not im not active anymore...
no much things hv been even given to me to do ...
and even when i dun attend
its my fault not his
i made the choice not him...
pls get the facts right...
u r too harsh
the more u keep saying the more i want to leave tis place
coz u dun really understand wat i been thru with him..
my choice is final and im not regretting anything
stop making it everything a nightmare for me..

"our love is getting deeper and deeper but im not afraid coz you are there.."

funny letter

2008-12-29T17:20:00.002+08:00

Got this from Agnes blog!!XD

RULES: Do the "Letter MEME".
Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment,
informing them that they have been tagged.
Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear [the last person who left a comment on your journal],

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the colour of your underwear? [-.-]
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations [Who's this?]
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

***

Dear,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it when we skinny dipped wnder a state of trance and I saw you sit on my penpal in Ghana. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand how awful I've felt. I'm returning the cut toenails to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I always have felt dirty before a new life as a clone .

Go burn,
yuanyi

haha!!no offense liang! XD
maybe if u want to write letters to people
u shd try using this to write XD

days passed, it's time

2008-12-29T15:52:00.006+08:00

hohohoho!!
it's been so long since i posted
well..
where shld i start with all the events happened..
i know!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO AGNES ANG!!^^
its finally ur 15th birthday, hoped you had ur fun
love you always=)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LAOGONG^^

was so glad i could celebrate with you till so late

srsly broke my record of staying out late

i enjoyed it and i want to spend everyday with u=)

and aso

our 6th month had passed on 17th dec^^

we been together for half a year le

woohooo!!! XD

sadly at day nv take pic

it was a day i knew the truth and the day

i gt understand wat it really means to forgive

i really want to thanks Liliang, Nicole and Chengyee

well they pei me=)

and of coz Laogong who now sort of noe how to take care of me le XP

on 19th dec was

Fahrenheit Fei Lun Hai World Tour Concert

went to watch it with Heimun & Gwen

woohoo our seats were one of the best

were nv blocked once and we gt to see all four of them up closed hehe XD

pity was the goody bag wasnt all tat gd

but we surely had a BLAST there!

but im not tat crazy as to really stalked them off to their hotels

haha XD

by the time reached home was ard 12 plus in the midnight

lucky gwen's dad decided to drive us

or else heimun and i will be stuck in traffic for who knows how long XD

well i will describe the details next time when i post the pics & maybe videos

on 20th dec

went out to suntec city with Heimun, Cass & Gwen

mandy was not able to make it T_T

but eventually we did went out with her =)

anyway bck to 20th

went there way too early

waited more than half an hour for them

gt beautiful gifts from all three of them^^

thanx but im so sry i cant get presents for you all

im saving up money for birthday presents

so ate at a japanese resturant where we purposely asked them to separate our bills

well not exactly just now btr la

took the best neoprint at the arcade which so totally love

and layed a few games there before gg to take a walk around

even bought myself the perfect summerdress i been eyeing for=)

on 22th dec

FINALLY LAOGONG'S BIRTHDAY

this day was so totally full of emotions

celebrated it with all his friends

first stop was at to Safra pool table

where the guys pooled

even played a few balls myself too^^

next was cabbed bck to Laogong's house to hv cake

this was super embarassing

SRSLY LO!!

all the guys keep asking me to give laogong birthday kiss

walao... *blushed* no choice lo

they all threatened de la

somemore still gt asked me to cut the cake with him

like we hving wedding dinner.... my face was super red~~

when everything over

went to bugis for arcade and aso dinner at swensens

gt a $7.90 ice cream for free just coz gt birthday boy

so those who likes swensens take note k

but of coz must show them ur ic la

headed bck to vivo so as to catch a late nite movie but too bad dun hv T_T

catched up with liang before heading the Sky Garden

to hv lots of pics of the guys taken

there were a total of 8 of us, 7 guys & 1 girl which is me

awkard.. i noe! haha

had so much fun before kanna chased to go home

waited for like 30 mins for just a cab!! torture!!

well at least gt to spend the whole day with him until the last 30mins to midnite

pics uploadin soon

on 23rd dec

went out to bugis with heimun, gwen,cass & mandy

all five of us are present^^ yippee!!

but only stayed for awhile

took a five of us neoprint

one of my wishes finally come true^^

walked around bugis street before gg bck

to find laogong for while den headed home

on 24th dec

went to countdownt to xmas^^

this time with liang, laogong, karliang, yongming and boonteck

all aboard down the mrt to vivo again

i noe very sian rite

was intending to go orchard but bad rain

so no choice

even went to settle stuff at harbour

first time i so bad and fierce in public

maybe tat's y i didnt get xmas presents

i gt into santa's naughty list XD

for details on wat happen go to LiLiang's blog!

saw my cousin and her son at vivo too^^

she was super pretty tat day!!

went to catch late movie at 11.25, watched YES MAN!

hilarious!!XDD

by the time movie end was 1 plus le

so everyone walked bck to send me home first!

had so much fun!!

not the exact xmas countdown experience i had in mind

but this would do!^^

Laogong even met my mum XDD

and here i say to everyone

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS TO ALL

to all who sms me

ps nv reply but i read all^^

well tats all i hv for all today

here i am typing away what happened

so longed everyone

meeting up with liang

2008-12-16T21:15:00.007+08:00

ok last thurs

went out with Liang, KarLiang, Lionel & Laogong

blah blah blah~

dun want to tok abt wat happen..

so this is at Breeks Cafe where liang is currently working at

snapshots taken by Liang

haha dun ask me wat they doing
i hv no idea!

and liang and me taking pic in the toilet XD

and today
liang pei me went bck to sch to take my IC ^^
u will see it ltr together with liang's
anw, after tat she rushed to work while i headed to laogong's house
and catch my beauty sleep
but i gt woke up from my beauty sleep when liang asked me to pei her
after her work which is at 5pm
pull myself up and headed there to get something to eat and drink
F.Y.I Liang has a "BF"!! well.. so call la
its super complicated
played and took pics as usual

on the way bck home to my house

where liang is beside me now

using the destop's internet

we met fareez at Starbucks

apparently he working just opp of liang

dots.. now den noe

he was studying his work things

so took a couple of pics

and head off

well this is all my day hv for u all
seeya!!

quiz

2008-12-09T00:05:00.003+08:00

damn!
gt tagged by LIANG & JOANNE
to do the same quiz
so here i am
freezing myself in the room while doing the quiz XP

1.each player of this game start of with 10weird ting/habit/little known fact abt yourself..
2.ppl hu gt tag nida write 10 ting little known fact
3.the end u nid 2 choose 10 ppl 2 tag n list out their names..
4.no tag back e person hu tag u..

Here's r e 10 weird ting/habit/little known fact abt myself...
1.like to be pampered by my big bro XP
2.hv super morning blues everyday
3.dun eat breakfast/lunch when at home during the holidays
4.SUPER LOVE to SHOP!! get grumpy when cant shop
5.listens to music everywhere i go
6.hates and scared to be left alone
7.chitchatting queen
8.drama crazy and dramatic sometimes
9.might be overreactive & hot-tempered
10.when my face actually spells " get lost", its time u run

my name;
A-you like to drink
B-you like people
C-you are really silly
D-you like to eat
E-you like to play with dogs
F-you are dead sexy
G-you never let people tell you what to do
H-you have good personality & good looks
I -easy to be with
J-people adore you
K-you are wild and cazy
L-everyone love you
M-best kisser ever
N-best BF/GF anyone could ask for
O-easy to fall in love with
P-you are popular with all type of people
Q-you are a tomboy
R-you are loyal to those who love you
S-crazy
T-awesome kisses
U-you really like to chill
V-awesome in bed
W-you are very broad minded
X-you love sports
Y-best BF/GF anyone could ask for..
Z-alway ready

hmm.. i dun think it would matter if i use full name will it
LOW YUAN YI
L-everyone love you { if its true, i would be troubled}
O-easy to fall in love with { ahem.. i dun really think so}
W-you are very broad-minded
Y-best BF/GF anyone could ask for {tats happy to hear}
U-you really like to chill {as in go out rite?}
A-you like to drink { as in water and soft drink right?}
N-best BF/GF anyone could ask for { woohoo!! like it to be mention de 2nd time}
Y-best BF/GF anyone could ask for { ok.. i gt it already!}
I-easy to be with

so here is the next ten lucky people
mandy
cassandra
gwendolyn
agnes
xinxin
sarah
nicole
liliang
joanne
and whoever is reading this quiz

well tats all folks!
^^

surprised birthday

2008-12-03T07:17:00.002+08:00

lols
today really quite surprising
is laogong's chinese birthday^^
gt the shock of my life when i wake up
now im super curious abt everyone's chinese birthday!
i found my own chinese birthday
woohoo!!^^
7/22 on chinese calendar
hehe!
just went to tell my mum abt this so i can hv second present XP
im being greedy here
but i dun care XP

happy chinese birthday to laogong^^

lalala~
kk nth much to say le
thats all!! bye~

wishes...

2008-12-02T22:59:00.003+08:00

29th Nov

haiz...
hv to copy liang's starting of blog for awhile..
im super tired these days..
plus im not feeling well too...
it sux sia!!
hvent been sleeping well past few days
coz aircon spoil
too hot even if i on my fan
force too stay awake the whole night and sleep only when day breaks
T_T
but at least now they fixing my aircon
so i can sleep in my room tonight again ^^
HURRAY!
haha~
was packing my room to find my bro's memory card
and i found it in the most unusual place
now currently putting my photos together
suddenly hv alot of wishes and things tat i really want to do
(1) i really want to take neoprints with my 5 best friends/laogong
(2)i really want to go Sentosa with 5 best friends/family/laogong
(3) really really feel like gg out to shop until i drop
(4) i feel like opening a party at Sentosa and invite everyone i noe to it
but i guess not all of them can come true
especially the 4th one..

just came bck from vivo XD
YAY! gt Starhub Hubstation in my room le ^^
i can watch alot alot of things le!!
somemore bought new clothes and jacket!
love it so much!!!
finally able to shop after so long
love shopping with my mum coz always can buy things de

30th Nov

last day of the month
and still my shopping mood is on!
gt lots of new clothes and acessories too
went bck to vivo again XD
but this time
gt a way bad new
my mum slip and fell at the basement of Giant
where the escalator there gt a small slope for trolley
hurt her butt
sad and funny at the same time XP
abit cruel

now bck to TODAY
didnt sleep much
so early morning went over to laogong's house
and went over to Sleeping Beauty's house to lend her swim suit ^^
well its was the same as almost everyday i went over to laogong's house
but i always love to be just by his side
and somemore
next thurs gg out with Liang, KarLiang and Laogong
go walk walk!! woohoo!!! srsly cant wait
my dream had come true XP
today den i realise alot of things
i lent to people sia
Cass hv my X-family dvds ^ KO One vcd plus my swimming googles
Liang still hv my Hana Kimi dvds with her plus my thumbdrive thingy
and i myself left alot of acessories things at laogong's house XD
haha
nvm la! wait longer den take bck aso nvm
my room in a BIG mess XD

outing with AGNES & XINXIN

2008-11-28T00:52:00.003+08:00

finally met up with AGNES & XINXIN
almost 5 months nv meet le ba
as usual
both late! {but i was sleeping anyway XD}
ZhenLiang couldnt make it
someone gt a girl in mind~ haha!
cant believe how CRAZY can those two get inside or outside my house
LOLS!
they two keep saying each other
NON-STOP
man, do u noe how much my ears and eyes suffered XP
kidding haha!
we watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua at Plaza bcoz of the student price
long long time nv see movie with them
after tat even went to Harbour to eat the Fried omelette rice from the teppanyaki
abit regret eating it
its nice
but den make me gt sore throat
hmm... correction BURNING sore throat
gg to be sick for weeks
coz i not gg to the docs
before heading home
met liang at her working place
she made use of us
to go redeem things sia
so bad~

looking forward to meeting AGNES , XINXIN & ZL soon
come my house so we can still play mahjong XD
{they still dun want to go take pics with me sia.. haiz}

5 month together^^

2008-11-17T22:30:00.008+08:00

Happy 5th month to myself and laogong^^

today is finally our 5th month together le^^
my best relationship ever^^
we finally took photo together after like 2-3 months
he didnt wanted to take coz of his hair too long not nice
who ask he last time say want to grow long hair
now regret XD
long hair super hard to maintain
past few months he keep complaining tat is super hot
now he dun want to hv long hair liao XD

last sat was ms quah wedding
it was so nice
ms quah looks beautiful in her wedding gown!
i will tok more abt this next time

things changes...

2008-11-12T20:59:00.020+08:00

well know tat just recently den i posted the quiz thing

but is srsly long since i last post wats happening in my life rite^^

currently

Heimun & Cass are at Hong Kong for their band trip

but they are coming bck tmr^^ but not sure wat time they landing in sg

Joanne & Sarah are aso at HK for their exchange programme

they will be coming bck at 18 nov

all four of ur all must hv a safe trip bck k^^

so on last sun

Mandy, LiLiang, Nicole, Jasmine, Kimberly, JueYu, Daniel, Dhurkesh and me

went to Changi airport Terminal 3 to send all of them off

so met Mandy and Liliang at tiong mac earlier to eat

but liliang didnt managed to make it! so OVERSLEPT! haha..

anyway finally waited for nicole and dhurkesh

so off we go to the airport

gossip and chitchat alot on the way there

had fun with them =)

so long nv been with them le
i noe last wed gt go out with nic,liang,sarah and joanne

to hv so call "farewell" la

but only eat Seoul Garden with them

after tat jiu set off le

anyway

we all managed to send the band off

of coz we took photos with them^^

HEIMUN^^

{F.Y.I we took all this photo in the toilet again XD}

MANDY^^

finally ALL FOUR^^
{wasted gwen couldnt make it T_T}

did took picture with cass

but den my hp went MIA

b'coz of liang and nic

took my hp dunnoe go where

end up

they went to coffee bean there to rot..-_-

so must wait until cass come bck tmr to send those photos^^

anyway after tat followed liang and nic to rot at coffeebean

i read comic, liang sms [& sleep], nic play daniel's psp

mandy went to church service at expo first

jasmine they all go find things to eat

finally waited for joanne they all to come

OMG!

the HongKong exchange programme students are far more den band de lo

so scary

so many students wearing blue

with their familiar members
haha while we went to find sarah and joanne at row 3

saw so many things at terminal 3

terminal 3 is newly built

love it so much! nicer den terminal 1 & 2

somemore almost all airline there is Singapore Airline de

next time travelling overseas gg to take SQ for sure!! [determine]

just rmbed now..

forget to take picture with them -,- blur sia..

anyway

liang,jas,nic,daniel,jueyu and me keep playing the machine tat weighs the luggage

LOLS XD

noe very childish XD

and obiviously amoung all im the lighest XD

i noe im being bhb now!! haha

so waited for the to go off

before heading bck to tiong with jas they all

liang & nic went for church service too

next recently event tat is gg to happen is

Ms Quah's wedding this sat 15th nov

this is one of ms quah wedding photo

nice right!! omg i fall in love with this photo!!

*fainting*

haha kidding

want to see more go

http://themarriageoftworobots.wordpress.com/

quiz

2008-11-08T20:55:00.003+08:00

well gt tagged by Mandy and Joash
to do a quiz! so here goes..!

Question - The Person who tagged me is?
answer: joash and mandy

Question - Your relationship with them?
answer: joash just my pri sch friend till now and mandy my best friend^^

Question - Your 5 impressions of them?
answer: joash: annoying, helpful, a stupid black ghost XP, friendly and honest
mandy: helpful, likes to laugh alot(love her laughter!), kind, friendly and trustworthy

Question - The most memorable thing she/he had for you for?
answer: mandy and i spent the most fun times together laughing^^
well... joash.. hmm.. spend my pri6 times as classmates with him!

Question - If they becomes your lover, you will?
answer: well.. joash.. NO WAY!he's already taken and Mandy..she's my "boyfriend"^^ love her lots!XD

Question - If he/she becomes your lover, things she/he has to improve on?
answer: dun always think bad abt urself b'coz no one is completely perfect in this world.. for both ba...

Question - If he/she comes your enemy, you will?
answer: hmm..will crack my brain to solve all sort of problems between us, especially for mandy
dun want to lose her T_T.. but joash, hmm.. nvm ba XD

Question - What is it you want to tell them now?
answer: to MANDY ONLY! LOVE U A WHOLE LTOS^^
to joash YO! XD

Question- You overall impression of them now?
answer: huh? dun understand... but i think shld be saying gd ba..?

Question - How do you think people around you will feel about you?
answer: not too sure.. but if its bad i rather not know..

Question - The characters of yourself you love are?
answer: too bhb to say la!

Question - The most ideal person you want to be is?
answer: to be myself always, tats wat people love me for.. i hope

Question - For people that care and likes you, say something to them.
answer: thanx for always being by my side and being my friend^^

Question - pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about..
answer:(1)- nicole
(2)-mandy
(3)- cassandra
(4)-heimun
(5)- gwen
(6)- agnes
(7)- xinxin
(8)- joanne
(9)- liliang
(10)- sarahchua

Question - Who's no 6 having relationship with?
answer: best of best friend since primary sch^^

Question - If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
answer: not sure leh.. they dun even noe each other.. but best nope! they will become les lo

Question - What is no. 2 studying about?
answer: hmmm..now sch over le leh.. shld be doing hw sometime ba

Question - When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
answer : think is on thurs or fri

Question - What kind of music does no. 8 like?
answer: not sure leh.. but almost ALMOST all kinds ba

Question - Does no 1 have any siblings?
answer: yup

Question - Will you woo no. 3?
answer: i would if im a boy^^ but i love her just the way she is

Question - How about 7?
answer: u mean wat woo ma? love her!! she's so cute^^

Question - Is no.4 single?
answer: should be if i am not wrong

Question - What is the surname of no. 5?
answer: tan

Question - What is a hobby of no. 10?
answer: being hyper XD

Question - Do no. 5 and no. 9 get along well?
answer: hmm.. soso ba...

Question - Where is no.2 studying at?
answer: henderson secondary

Question - where does no. 9 lives?
answer: opp sch! and woodlands

Question - What colour does no. 4 like?
answer: definately pink!

Question - What is number 10 doing now?
answer: packing for tmr trip to hk i hope

end of quiz^^

recently

2008-10-30T04:11:00.003+08:00

wow!

realise i really quite long nv update le

was busy watching videos most of the time XD

ok recently just had camp

the camp was not tat bad

just tat quite alot of scolding though

hehe

first night slept in tents

all 5 of us (Nic, Liang, Joanne, Sarah and me!!)

we call it de sec3 tent

LOLS!!! XDD

second night was in air con dorm room with beds^^

i know we are lucky XDDD

recently skipping bridging lessons

so far think only talked to liang abt this

haiz..

getting worried for mum

wooaahh...

its gettingg late

i btr go rest

im keeping it short and simple for nw

not much problem recently

hope everything will go like these..

loves

new meaning...

2008-10-19T01:49:00.006+08:00

woohoo!
exams are really finally over!
thank goodness
but the worst part happens here
where particularly
everyone
starts worrying abt results and whether they will get promoted

haiz...
troublesome abt studying and in sch are all these
to wat i think leh
no matter is pass or fail
promote or retain
as long as i know i did my best [or at least i think i hv]
watever tats in my future waiting for me
i will just accept
as long as i know watever it might be
i will work hard to wat i want to achieve [good things not bad]
and i dun want to worry abt things tat might not even happen
its will just waste brain cells
plus stressing ourselves out and putting ourselves down

why worry abt the future or past, if we do, all we do is
ignoring wat we hv in the present and not treasuring
them at all, live for the present and not for the past
and future, if we dun, we are just adding more things
to the past and future.
B'coz every mins in our life is precious
dun get urselves struck in thoughts face reality coz tats
where we belong
treasure those around u, things around u before
it disappear!
i want to treasure every min i hv with everyone i love
as i dun want to regret on it in the future and keep
thinking abt wat i can do btr in the past coz life is
not like this

kk enough of all these
although i noe all these
but im not tat optimistic as i am
these days aso nth much happened
wrote in my diary
6pages long!
write until hand pain!
XD

It's our 4th month on fri 17th oct^^

i had fun on tat day^^itsnotactuallywathappenedatall..all i feel is sad now...

we planned everything outXD

but today was damn bored

whole day at home

plus i made a record

i only ate 1 meal for two days

dunnoe how i can survive sia XD

anyway time to rest

gg to sleep soon

nitez

p.s Jasmine,Mandy and XinXin dun keep asking me to update le la!XP

last two paper

2008-10-05T02:35:00.000+08:00

finishing paper...

yes!

Finally

only left last twopaper

chemistry and em paper 2

omg!

cant wait till the end of exam

at least can relax abit

before studying bck again

must JiaYou JiaYou Jiayou

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XINXIN!!

2008-10-02T12:54:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!!
IT'S XINXIN'S FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XINXIN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

nice to be fifteen rite!^^
=( so sad i dun hv a pic of xinxin
cannot post! next time i snapshot you k^^
make sure u go make ur IC k
make u officially 15 yrs old!
den next yr will be ur sweet sixteen birthday^^
wonder wat u wishing for birthday.. hmm...
must come out and celebrate k!^^
seeya real soon promise^^

this blog is delicated to xinxin only XD
lovess always!

too much things to blog

2008-09-27T14:07:00.016+08:00

8th sep : MY BIRTHDAY!!^^ but its over

celebrated it with my friends at vivo acarde, family on 7th sep at suntec and of coz my laogong^^ hadabigquarrelonthisday..causedmetothinktatishldnotexistbecozimade
himaloneandcryonthisday

17th sep : OUR 3RD MONTH^^

nv took photo(coz laogong say his hair not nice will take next time), spend time at house
quarrelagainandalmostfaintedfornoteatingthewholeday..luckyhewas
thereforme^^

19th sep: Graduation day for sec 4 and 5 &

went to watch dance concert with dancers at

NUS

hehe! went to nus with dancers, had so much fun plus had fun doing duties at Graduation day
and laogong even sent me home after watch finish the concert tat end around 11pm^^

22nd sep: joanne, liliang, nicole and mandy

came to "study" instead ransack my room

was sick for the day so they came find me, my room was a toal mess after they went off XD
almostbreakdowncompletelybecozhesaidthewordbreak..ireallytotwebrokeup

24th sep: OUR 100TH DAY TOGETHER^^

again aso nv take photo, next day exam le so nv go out, he say he owe me two dates after exam XP itotwecouldnotlasttillthisday

and the day i nv want it to come

25th sep : first day of exam T_T

will last all the way till 7 oct

ok i noe my blog been half dead and such
but i bck alive k
alot of things had happen in sch
most of the days i wanted to be so much alone
and especially on 22nd sep, i almost had a complete breakdown cozalmostbrokeup
but of coz fine now le la!^^
ok n sch i was like everyday emo
and been sick for so many days
so many times headache, stomachache plus now sore throat and flu T_T
im so sry to ps ahmun all the time
and sry to all my friends for ignoring u when i wasnt tat happy or rather crying
sry for making all of u worry and thanx so much for being there
thanx for Carmen, Mandy, Liliang and Nicole
for consulting and being there to listen and pei me
aso
thanx to Cass, Heimun, Gwen, Jas, Agnes
for just being there for me^^
and aso XinXin and Agnes Ang for all these times
caring for me XD
i had rough times
but i been thru everything with laogong
and really hope tat no more and i really mean no more fight!
now im just happy being by his side^^

ok upcoming events coming up

28th sep :F1 night race in SG, the final race

2nd oct : XINXIN'S BIRTHDAY!!^^

7th oct: last paper for exam!!YAY

8th & 9th oct : marking day!

17th oct : 4TH MONTH TOGEHTER^^

aiming to buy a $19 shorts at Baleno at tiong by 1st oct
and aso a nike bball for $49 at sports link
aso xinxin's present and handmake 4th month presentXD
he say if i go buy he wont talk to me but he nv say i cant make it rite XD

busy busy day

2008-08-25T22:03:00.004+08:00

one day we will hv it like this..

cant believe i ran after the bus early in the morning

tiring~

contacted laogong as usual!

omg! so many things nv do lo!

was in such a rush

plus nv study for test X.X

morning tat time

told ah mun abt it

but im glad its over le!

stay happy jiu can le! time will heal! somemore u hv us! XD

mornign duty as usual

was worried for him..

he gettin to dislike ___ more le..

haiz..

school was tiring today

wanted to slp the whole day

barely even climbed out of bed

somemore today until 3pm -.-

NICOLE!!!GET WELL SOON K^^

today the whole day was worried for

MANDY and LAOGONG

was hoping tat i did wat i can to be able to be there for them..

but sometimes i really dun feel tat i help much...

did all tat i could...

hope its enough...

but i noe i can do more, expecially for laogong

want to be there for him

so tat he wont be alone

tats wat im aiming to do for now^^

To MANDY

omg! so long nv tok to u for so long!!

haha!! was damn fun chatting with Agnes, Jas and u today at mac!

LOL till can cry

jas even cried le lo!! XD

drow the bad things as far away as to North Pole there

where the Santa can help u change to gd things and give u as x'mas present

it might take long

but its will be worth letting it go

and u r getting new gd things!^^

i will be ur santa! XD
need my shoulder, find me k!

and aiyo!

no waste of sms la! its worth the msges la!! anyhow say^^

tats wat BESTBESTFRIENDS are for ar!! no more quarrels or misunderstanding

GD TO HV U BCK MY BESTBESTFRIEND!^^

LOVE YOU TO DEATH TOO!! <333

To LAOGONG

sometimes i feel tat left u alone too much..

u think so ma?

say real de

anyway i really hope tat nth happens

u really gt me worried there

just hope everything is really alright(praying~)

i will be there no matter wat k

dun leave me alone

and i promise i wont too..!!

love u lots lots!!!!!!!!!!<333333333333333333333333333

today scared me sia

fell asleep at laogong house

when i promise to find Mandy

laogong managed to wake me up

den i realised Mandy was llike crying over for more den 1 hr le

faster dashed bck to sch

heimun and cass tagged along!

was like damn damn tired lo~

but was worried for mandy

lucky after tat she was ok

after awhile jiu sit at there

tok abt it

before headed to bm mac with jas,agnes and mandy

we alr started toking abt other random things

like sparkC camp le

toked until keep laughing and laughing lo!!

noe siao liao XD

but was just happy tat mandy was able to cheer up bck

its not fake mask leh, real smile XD

came to a conclusion(something like tat)

he wasnt worthy at all

for any girls

i noe we say until like tat like all his fault

but not trying to push the blame all to him

just wish tat he could be more responsible to Mandy lo

haiz...

disappointed to find out wat kind of person he is..

who cares anyway

all of us are thru with it le

right mandy?

Definately Will Last Long With Laogong de^^

tats wat i been planning to do with him all the while^^

love laogong so so so muchhh...!!!!

bck in sch

2008-08-21T19:29:00.006+08:00

random pics

u bring sunshine to me... u shine so bright..

replied of tags

Nicole- surprise to see this again ma? LOL XD wei! dun
anyhow say i pon leh, sick la, anyway tmr pei me and liang go vivo ma XP pretty
pls..

XinXin- Haha! suddenlyy gt mood maXD at least i gt blog abt
the day we met XP

Vanessa- haha!! ^^ saw le! gg bck tmr le rite ='(

Mandy- nth biggy de la! everythings fine le XD

finally gt bck to sch

after two days of rest

omg didnt noe i missed so much of lesson

hv to catch up soon

nth much happen today

just didnt feel in place for some reason

oh ya

i almost forgot!

HAPPY 3RD YEAR ANNIVERSARY

TO JASMINE AND JIAWEN

hehe!!
laogong, laopo for 3 years le
wish tat u two dun hv conflicts amoung each other
and stay happy as best friends k^^

half a day spent at sch
another half spent with laogong
nth much really happen so blog end here XP

the main reason y i want to blog today

is to reply ur post
u r not saying mean words to hurt me
after all they are the truth abt me
i seen myself too
and i know wat im like

so really dun need to apologise..
its mine fault not urs or the other three..
been trying to improve on myself
but just dun hv much improvement

hmm..

wondering
is quiting school a bad idea to think abt....?
not becoz of him or anything tat happen in sch actually hv.. not laogong but just feel very empty.. maybe friends?
just suddenly gt a little tired from studying
and just want to rest for a very long time..
but just a thought...maybe im not as happy as i think i am.. around him and everybody else..
people around me noe tat i will think too much..
dun be surprise tat i can think abt world destruction..
ok enough of all these crazy toking
my mind hv gone to far in the fantasy XD
switching bck to reality
btr stop all these emoing or ltr
people like nic and xinxin come say me le XP

im asking too much from everyone.. being selfish..time to put my hopes lower on everyone

apologies...

2008-08-19T11:01:00.006+08:00

reported sick today..
first time..
nv report sick before
everytime if really sick will stick thru the whole day of sch
but 2day just couldnt
but physically and mentally needs me to go bck home...
cant even take it during eng
asked liang pei me go toilet..
thanx liang for keeping me company and listening to wat i was saying
noe tat i wasnt being a gd friend... but u were always there for me, thanx!
and thanx to jas for accompany to report sick & nic for caring for me^^
and Vanessa for chatting with me online^^
and aso not to forget laogong for chatting with me till now=)
i been thinking is this all the friends hv tat actually care.. or is there lesser...
had enough of quarrels.. can we stop.. my moods r always up and down..

managed to report sick despite not hving fever
mum allowed me to head bck home alone
take a damn long and slow walk to inter
and took a bus home
wanted to stop to eat mac breakfast
since long long time nv eat le
but den no appetite..
maybe im gg to do the same thing again...
not eating...there's just too much things on my mind..
on the way bck keep msging laogong..although not everything is gd..
taken a new word in today..
alone...
im not saying im alone in the world
im so afraid of being alone rather den dying..
tats y i nv like silence.. becoz silence always make me feel alone..
and especially just now when i head bck home alone
i see everyone tat makes me so unfamiliar with.. really make me feel scared..
am i asking too much from everyone..?

read le.. knew le..
u shld noe tat this is for you ba..
i understand tat all of u r saying these..
i noe u aso hv.. same as me..
but u r handling ur time way btr den me..
i noe u guys r alr pissed off abt it le..
just now u all nv say..
we are drifting apart this we all can see...
to all and everyone, im drifting apart from u all
this i dun disagree..
i noe recently i hvent stay bcked sch like last time i did
plus im not sticking to u all when its recess or sort
and im taking u guys for granted
i spare a tot for all four of u..
but no matter how much i try
i nv succceed..
i knew tat u will agree to wat she said..
i dun disagree to tat.. u dun need to pretend nth happen
coz no matter how much u pretend
ur body will show me tat u actually mind..
i knew these kind of things will happen
i predicted it.. but there was nth much i can control..
i want to be with u guys and i aso want to be with him..
whenever im with him, i will not hv time to be with u all..
whenever im with u all, i will not hv time with him..
either way it will hurt someone...
i noe im not a gd friend..
and u no need to apologies
coz the only one tat make u all sad is me...
sry..
i cant manage my own time..
i lost control of all things..
sry.. im not wat u expected at all..
i cant prove u wrong
coz i cant even prove to myself wat am i doing
i can only say tat u guys still treasure to me so much
but i dun think i showed it the correct way
and i expected too much from u all le..
i noe its ridicous saying all these..
u all can hate me le..

went out le^^

2008-08-17T23:27:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!

finally gt to went out of his house today! XD

especially today rain sia! ^^

hehe!

he still decided to go out

and watch movie!

after all its our 2nd month!! ^^

reach his house abt 12plus like tat

we slept late last night!

and laogong

ps scared u last night!

went to watch Money Not Enough 2

abit rush down to vivo to watch

end up get the 2nd row from front

still went to watch anyway ^^

was raining lo

and laogong still come out leh

so of coz must watch ar^^

was exactly as funny as i tot

but was touching lo

most of touchy scenes laogong was laughing lo

coz he thinks the crying scene abit fake

so keep laughing

only when see me cry den stop XD

^^ was holding on to each other most of the time

BEST MOVIE EXPERIENCE EVER <3333333

oh ya

suay suay

before the movie starts

there was a trailer on a ghost movie

scared the hell out of me lo

dun even dare to look

keep looking at laogong who is watching the trailer

hear screaming i feel like screaming too

they scream i more scared sia T_T

lucky laogong was there for me

keep holding on to his hand!

damn weak when i come to this kind of thing... XP

saw quite some shows tat we wanted to watch next time^^

when movie finally over

decided to go home

and rest for awhile

did really rest lo

most of the time spent was sleeping!

took damn lots of pics but jsut decided to post one XP

did had a weird quarrel

tat let laogong angry at me..

didnt noe the reason...

so left his house crying..

but of coz everything is fine le^^

we nv quarrel long XP

but u noe scared the hell out of me again..

saw a dead bird just around the lift lobby there..

second time le..

wonder wat it means sia..

scared me till i cry...

hope it means nth..!

had such a wonderful day^^

my wonderful 2nd month is completed!!

except i forgot to buy 2nd month present

will be buying soon

tou tou de qu mai XD

although laogong alr noe wat i want to buy!

somemore

gt bluster on my toe there

for wearing high heels today

shld hv wear sockings..

abit pain T_T

but will get over it!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY^^

laogong love u forever n ever!! <3333

2nd month together^^

2008-08-17T01:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2ND MONTH TOGETHER^^

our second month le

^^ laogong wo ai ni <333

hehe^^

been staying up just to say this XD

now midnight

ltr gg out with him^^

cant wait till morning

be loving u forever n ever!!

still chatting with him on the phone XP

gt the mood to blog...

2008-08-15T21:18:00.005+08:00

finally gt some mood to blog le

well coz today not much in a gd mood

dun tok abt today first

MON 11/08

FINALLY GOT TO MEET AGNES AND XINXIN^^

and of coz they gt their presents from jap^^

omg,

great changes to AGNESANG

XD she went reborn her hair i dun even know sia

shld hv snapshot her!

she keep snapshot me -.-

cute sia

ask me meet at 12pm at bm library

end up both of them so late den me sia

leave me alone in the library T_T

they two aso cute de lo

nv tell me they gg to study sia

nv bring a single material to go study

end up only gossip XD

even saw jasmine, christabel and kelvin sia

mandy was supposed to be there but den dunnoe where she go

end up headed to mcdonald and chitchat to 3pm

before i went to find laogong again^^

today 15/08

today arent in one of the best mood..

i really hv to apologise to

my friends in GB

wasnt in such a gd mood at times..

some strange tots always get in my head somehow

plus not very happy in gb today too

just cant get use to it...everything tat needs to be.. arent tat way...\

its btr if i just pretend not to see or noe... i fake mask is not wat i want ..neither a fake smile.. it hurts

laogong didnt pei me go sch today T_T

but he did came after recess

as late, of coz

and laogong, ps not very happy so nv smile to u

let u think tat i was angry with u, ps!!

was not very happy with drills as usual

want to teach them wat i noe

but the discipline is always not there

really getting on my nerves...haiizz..

pass thru gb within mins.. so it seems like cant believe tears will fall by itself..

den was MT

had test tat was damn long!

and suay siao no correction tape le -.-

managed to get thru the test

without much trouble

after sch just finished up my prefect reflection with the help of Chibit Agnes ^^

i rmb to repay u de XP

and sort of pei laogong to do chem test

kk one of the most sian things tat happened today was

tat laogong say one of his friends asked him whether is it he stead with ____

-.-... not expecting tat to be heard

and aso

hving his friends shout over to my class there

say "_____,mx like you" isnt one of the best thing either

both ___ isnt my name.. diff names

so ya

jealous and was moody..coz i noe im not as gd as u two..

but everything was fine after tat

coz i noe its not he wanted de ar^^

is his friends disiao

spend rest of the day at his house, resting

before heading bck home early

just another two more days to our 2nd motnh^^

love you lots!

not blogging

2008-08-14T23:49:00.002+08:00

okok!
just wanted to post this to say
i wont be blogging for awhile here becoz
first thing: lazy
second thing: busy
third thing: dun feel like blogging
so ya
people try not to ask me to update k XP
kk
signing out!
byebye!

i just cant believe it..

2008-08-06T20:11:00.008+08:00

can u hear me shouting i love you now..?

today is like -.-
coz today quarrel with laogong the most la
and somemore
first time scream at him
so ya its -.-
but of coz after tat was ^^ le

always love him no matter wat de^^ coz he is forever my laogong!
was another tiring and frustrating day.. plus another moody day cant believe tat tat was the secret..i hoped at tat time i guess wrongly but guess i cant deny the fact rite...
frustrated coz we two quarrel la
tiring coz damn long day
had a final rehearsal for ndp at 4pm with nic
so like damn long day
somemore today hv chem and ss test.. stress
i just want to hv a break from sch sometimes...
feel like not coming sch tmr..
really tired sia..
I WANT A BREAK!!
haha! XD too over le!!
nth much really happen today
beside hving to change our sitting arrangement in the morning
lucky still can see him XP
feels weird to sit so "in" this time
sec1 and 2 de shi hua always more "out" de
need time to get use to it actually i nv mention it but when i guess it.. i feel my heart pain again..like tat time i heard he like qt.. its the same feeling.. plus damn lot of heat escape from my body.. and all i wanted to do is cry..but i cant coz i dun want to hurt mandy.. so hv to live on without regreting..

Liliang- thanx for being there for me when needed! u r always always there! thanx mumm, i cant even hide my feelings from u, coz u noe me so well! love u so so much <333
Mandy- ah man ar! promise me no more feeling guilty k! im fine srsly, no need u to trust me or anything but just believe me k^^ will be waiting to hear the rest of the story plus my ears r still open and my shoulder r still waiting if u need to lean on k^^love u forever, no hate srsly!^^ <333
Nicole- surprise ma? LOL XD just want to thank u for being there for me too!^^ i noe le la! wont argue with him le! we must 有难同当有福同享 something like tat la XD haha love u!!<333

till now i hv to let go no matter how much pain it needs for me to handle coz mandy, you r the one meant for him tat is srsly so much btr den me.. coz all i do is hurt him..now i noe its not becoz he scared of relationship and love tats y he dun want give me a chance.. rather is coz he liked u but didnt noe himself.. i dun blame no one but just myself for being the fool of not treating him well.. no worries now le.. i will let go for the sake of mandy, him and laogong..because i shld hv long ago.. plus im really fine very fine with the fact tat mandy like him coz im all along fine with her being around him, no matter as friend, brother or bgr.. stay happy both of u.. get together soon

the fear...

2008-08-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

today was tiring...
had a full day of sch plus ndp rehearsal
and as usual there are alot of tests
omg
strting tmr
we changing the class position sia
T_T
no more sitting away from the ally roll le
went to see the arrangement
from sec1s there(where we shld be sitting)
it will be
3N1, 3N2,3T1,3T2,3E1,3E2 and 3E3
so means 3E3 will be sitting at the ally there
and im two classes away from him
is abt the same la
hope its still easier from me to see him
since its like only two classes away
pls.. let me still be able to see him XP

english period srsly almost slept...
not tired de lo
but cher sometimes make it sleepy
somemore there are 4 pro people
cant believe they can walk over during class sia! XD
suan ur all pro^^
had another group work thingy
stupid la
grp with joash again -.-
always disturb
not scared sia!! as stupid as during pri sch
keep toking abt pri sch things
like how anvar came in class with the basketball tie around his stomach
there with his prefect tie -.- dotz rite
den came in class say wat
im pregnant.. im pregnant!!
it like DAMN funny!! after tat the bball dropped
den he say dun step on my baby dun step on my baby XD
funny sia!
but all its in the past le ar
rather stay in the present
coz this is wat i want to treasure
the present and the future(with you)^^

joash neo dun u dare bully me le hor!!
and jasmine ar
more girlish abit la
use ruler hit joash till gt blood
next time dun come near me le la!
LOL XD
phys test is like whole two period sia
first test : reflection (20mins)
second test : refraction (30 mins)
hope this time can really pass
think so far nv even pass phy test before
mr chua nv take the class
is relief cher, dunnoe where he go
right after test jiu recess le
went to find laogong for recess ^^

ok here i really want to say
SRY to ah mun, ah gwen, mandy and cass
i noe tat i ps u all during recess
u all not tat happy
even though ah mun gt like say u come bck le ar
but i noe u guys still mind abit..
so sry!! didnt even tell u
before i left off
sry!!
hope u guys forgive!!
and stupid la
the photocopyer in library spoil
cant photocopy maths T_T
maths is busy busy busy
so many things to do and copy XP
MT was ok la..
still had to take test after sch coz i "absent" from class on fri
cant believe tat the lowest is 4 marks
wondering who..
lucky ting xie is postpone to thurs!!
and FT period is free^^ coz mr lee dunnoe y aso nv come class
so most of the time using hp, taking photo and listening music

after sch went to laogong's house to rest for awhile
but den had a "fight" along the way
so like nv talked all the way
but its ok le^^
aso dun think we bear to be angry or sad with each other for too long
things always get settled de
after tat still need to rush bck to sch
for ndp rehearsal
waa!!
hot again sia! but at least gt nic pei me!!
haha nicole kk la
understand wat u say abt how i dun eat le la
will try to eat again le!
so dun scold me le k^^

here's a small thank you to alan yeo
for caring^^ everything's fine le
gd luck for ur common test

laogong
thanx for forgiving me everytime
u alr very very gd to me le^^
love you always always!!
dun get misunderstanding le la..
i dun want argue anymore le
u aso dun want rite..
from now on promise me u will tell me everything
promise k^^

these few days..
nightmare of those things.. alr hv three le..
i hope its really not all true...
just rmbing.. sometimes really let me feel tat kind of fear..
laogong..
only hv u by my side den i wont hv those nightmare le
^^ love you!
and my appetite suddenly went wrong..
since the five days nv eat proper meal
almost everything i eat from the first day i eat a proper meal
i been hving vomiting feeling..
cant even eat finish a full meal
will suddenly lost my appetite for the whole day...
dunnoe wat's wrong..
haiz..

everything's all wrong...

2008-08-04T01:54:00.002+08:00

look at the time now
im still awake
im tired but dun feel like sleeping
coz things happen and i just cant accept it...
i wanted to tell u so much wat i was thinking
but first thing
i dunnoe how to open my mouth to say..
second thing
i dun think i gt a chance
lastly..
my heart ache too much for me to say anything...

y i always dun get y my relationship hv the same problem
trust..
is my own hand and mouth tat cause this problem de ba
i dun blame myself
but when u become like tat i really will..
i not threatening or watso ever
but i really am blaming myself for cozing u to be like this...
if it wasnt for the misunderstanding
den it would not hv became like this..
and i would not hv cause ur pain..
i can only secretly cry over it now..
do not want to hurt u anymore le..

hearing u change..
hearing the words u said now..
my heart shattered over a thousand times again and again
it hurt so much tat sometimes i can really feel tat pain on my chest
like something is pressing down on it hard
while someone is putting thousands of needles from inside..
even if i hv this feeling
when i normally hv.. wat difference it can make..
the change i make with my own hands..
i cant even bring bck wat it was before..
i cant even make him happy and smile truly anymore
can only make my heart ache even more
will my heart ache till my body cant take it anymore..
will everything be btr..
how can i be btr for him..
is this all i can do.. or rather hv i bring enough pain to everyone..
maybe i shld just...disappear
i want him to smile so much like before..
but i just cause him to cry every nite with the smile gone like mine..
wat hv i done.. everything's all wrong now..

dreams...

2008-08-03T16:21:00.011+08:00

Agnes- haha kk la! dun hate 28 le k^^ coz of ur birthday i dun hate it k XP
love it so so much le! going to celebrate with u kk no matter wat! must invite me to celebrate with u kk!! ^^ <333

XinXin- haha!^^ still rmb i ur laopo ar! ^^ hehe laogong we married le how long ar? kk la dun test our memory le, plus scared ltr my laogong jealous XP love u lots xin! miss u!!<333

LiLiang- mummi read ur blog le... haiizz.. still abit sry cant really pei u most of the time.. hope can really help to take all ur problems away but cant so sry..but will be by ur side de.. i promise! love u lots <333

last nite had a nitemare to say...
had ghosts inside the dream
but the ending of the dream was weird..
ending was with laogong
but in the beginning of the dream was with my friends
including xinxin sia
weird....
in the dream abit scared.. but after tat was ok..

im hving mixed feeling now..
i dunnoe wat the hell am i thinking now
y am i always thinking so much abt things..
and tat i cant always say out wat i want to say
and wat im thinking abt majority of the time....
when it comes to u.. i always think abt how to just make things happy for u
nv wanting to say wat is wrong
or rather wat can hurt u
every single thing tat u do or dun do
can hai wo think so much
dunnoe y i can only cry and cry over things
i really dunnoe wat to do now...
the disappointment i coz u... is more than wat i expected
and i cant torelate not being gd to u...
wat can i do to make u happy...
i always dream of doing so.. but cant really make it happen..

now i can think of one song tat can really tell how i feel to u
對不起 by Wang Zi from The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries
noe this song ba..

请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想着过去我学着让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃
请你相信我我会更加珍惜
请你相信我我会呵护着你

this are really wat i want to say...
love u so so so much.....!!!

my stubborness...

2008-08-02T13:38:00.002+08:00

y always my stubborness hv to cause so much trouble..
or rather so much sadness..
to both u and me..
laogong really _ _ _..
always the basic things i cant do well..
somemore always dun listen to wat u say
or rather always dun do wat u say
_ _ _
i swear tat this thing will not happen again
if it ever does..
just scold me can...
i promise tat from now on i wont nv do things that u dun want me to do
like apologising
or blaming myself
i really promise
and i swear to trust u with all my heart and life..
no doubts or watso ever le
i swear..!

today was like one big rush here and there
firstly wake up aroun 935 in the morning
so as to go shao mu for my grandpa
so didnt manage to attend GB in the morning
everything was rush sia
bought laptop along with me but i couldnt use the internet
instead watched rolling love
hvent watch finish XP
things ok with my mum le.. but still wont rely on her to protect me anymore..neither trust her..
so strted to eat ^^
did u noe i nv ate a proper meal for like 5 days or 6
hehe! strong rite
kk jkjk
and this time my mum drive bro and me down all the way to chua chu kang

OMG lo

tot we cant make it bck "alive"
noe abit exagerating
but nv had we been so far with just my mum's driving
so ya was like
1000% SCARED
sry ma! just didnt wanted to stress u tat time so nv say
but of coz everything went out quite ok
with my help aso la
finished eveything and rush down to GB to take my drill theory test
plus hv our annual meeting lo
after tat went to magic box for awhile to rehearsal for
the farewell party
abit wat la
we booked the place from 1-4pm
but those people after 4pm keep coming in to like disturb
damn NO privacy one lo
ask them to like exit the place
they ohohoh but after still come in-.-
wat the hell rite
aiya dun care them le la
hope no next time like tat lo

what can i do...

2008-08-01T20:49:00.010+08:00

i dun even noe how to communicate with you le..
our relationship have turn strange...like strangers...
everything started tat night.. cant believe tat we will hv this day..
i dun even feel like going home anymore..
it feels so strange now... i guess tat on my birthday.. i celebrate my own btr ba
dun need u to skip ur classes or work le
every single word i hear now relate back to what you say tat night..
i will always rmb... i dun want anything from u le..
i want to return everything to u...
the things i want, i will get it with my own hands now
wont rely on u le coz
once the people i rely on hv alr fallen and will nv come bck
dun feel like relying on anyone le
u want me to change
so here i am
dun u regret it..again...
i dun hate you.. really i dun.. i just dislike the family now..

the only reason y i smile now is coz of laogong and my friends
if i dun hv them.. my smile would hv long gone... i dun want to make them moody like i am....
you can dun care abt me le...

laogong.. really thanx for not leaving me...
u r really the one i can always rely on
love you forever and ever... thanx for protecting me^^
and sry for the things i made u angry!
thanx for being there^^

did catering service for the GOH and VIPs from Singapore Poly
along with 9 trusty gb gals!
had so much fun sia!!^^
although of coz need to wear full uni
which is like HOT HOT HOT
sweating even in air condition room XD
managed to skip like two period of MT and half day of GB
but missed my CL test T_T
need to retest sia...
had fun with wei xin aso^^
we gt our little secret of our own=)
toked to xueting and shanice too
hope everything goes well..

not wat i expected...

2008-07-29T22:45:00.005+08:00

Firstly i will like to thanx

Heimun, Gwen, Mandy, JiaWen, Jasmine
Agnes,LiLiang and Nicole

for comforting me today
plus definately not to forget

Laogong who hv always been with me since everything happened
and a BIG SORRY to everyone for not saying anything
i expecially want to thanx

MANDY and LAOGONG
for being there to listen and comforting so much
mandy, really thanx for listening and giving advice
its gd tat i hv such a friend like u!
and laogong,
im sry...
i couldnt take gd care of u....
coz of my own selfishness
i didnt even notice tat u were not feeling well
just coz im not in a very gd mood...
sry...
couldnt take proper care of u
lucky u r btr now..

i didnt expect things to be like tat..
all i wanted was....
now i noe..
i cry the most for my family..
i cant bare to even leave them... i dun even noe wat to do..
from a point i really wanted to ......
i just dun believe tat such a thing will happen..
strting to hate number 28
from now on
i swear i wont ask for more anymore...

things gone wrong...

2008-07-27T00:16:00.005+08:00

LiLiang- hey mummi , just went to read ur blog
u hor dun always haiz le la
must be like nic papa and me always be happy
noe its hard but try
anyway im really sry tat nowadays dun hv tat much time to pei u tok like last time
or pei u go out like last time le but den i will always still be there for u
dun u forget tat k! ^^ happy tat mummi like nuer so much! haha love u lots <333>
Laogong- laogong.. really sry abt today
seems like im not as a gd laopo as u said
but wont happen again i swear
thanx for always staying by my side even when i do wrong
i really love u a whole lots ^^ muackz!!
p.s : u alr is a DAMN GD AND PRO laogong le! dun always say urself bad can^^ promise k !
Heimun-ah mun ar!! u take care of urself k, recover from ur fever soon, drink more water!^^ love u!

wake up damn early 2day for GB
like normal weekday lo
sian.. -.-
but for drill hv to de la
so as usual kanna punish for being late
anyway learn new things
in a way is old la! coz learn once before
but is for refreshing memory ar^^
had fun and was tiring la
oh ya
LIANG! thanx for learning me ur boots!!
so after everything went to go tok tok and eat with liang
before gg to find laogong as usual^^
things gone wrong
when i always say something wrong
im sry... nv shld hv doubt..
thanx for forgiving
went home tat time say
a bunch of bastards sia
keep asking me to go over to them
and saying GB GB
if my mood was anymore bad!
would hv scolded them
I LOVE NIGHT BREEZE so cooling
was around my area there de open area alr hv a nice breeze and nice skyview
it would be so much nicer if i was at east coast at nite with laogong^^
one of my dreams and wishes
one of my biggest wish are
___________________ & ________________
hehe my secret^^
there are people who noes abt it
but i dun think anyone is interested to noe
who would want to read my blog anyway
expect for my friends la!
hmm... wonder wats instore for me tmr
signing out for now! BYE!

i dun even want to think of leaving u... sry tat i almost did it today...
dun even noe wat the hell i was thinking tat time... gome....
kk... enough of gome for today....

Mandy's birthday party

2008-07-26T23:57:00.004+08:00

haha!^^
here are some of the photos from mandy's birthday party
only manage to take some photos
not alot
coz end up need to go bck early
so here goes

LOL! joash lose the game and hv to stuff as many mashmallow in his mouth
gg to say the word "rubber ducky" LOL XD
birthday girl and me^^ finally let me take a pic le
gwen gwen^^
LOL! candid shot sia! but i forgot whose hand was tat! look at jas eyes XD

finally smile^^

things became...

2008-07-24T22:02:00.014+08:00

Tags replied

Laogong<333- noe laogong will nv leave me alone de la! and i promise.. erm no... swear and cross my heart tat i wont NV EVER leave ur side k, u will nv nv nv be alone no matter wat happen i promise to be by ur side^^ so always think of me k..^^ love u lots lots till eternity
Mandy- YO!! haha!! thanx for understanding ^^ glad tat i was the VERY FIRST to sms u just in time on 00:00on ur birthday! always wanted to be the first to do so!ah man ar! no matter wat turn to us to lean on k!u noe we will always be there for u when u wanted^^haha! yup im still young! XP
birthday sure need birthday song plus a special present de ar^^LOVE YOU LOTS! <333>
Xinxin- haha!! ya ya! finally update le la! ps now adays more busy!^^ haha! p3 den noe u de leh!! haha i been loving u lots lots since pri sch^^ dun scam me le hor! haha love and miss u lots! <333>
Agnes!- of coz i miss u ar! hello how long we nv see each other le, everytime cannot meet up with each other de!! hurry one day u, xin and zl come my house la! want play mahjong aso de leh XP
Gwen & Heimun- haha!! ah mun's pic nice rite! gwen will aso gt the same^^ love u two<333>
Joanne- wa! dun candid me le la! always candid people de la! DUN U DARE POST HOR!!! dun post tat pic hor!!
RuiYi- haha! thanx for ur tags everytime=)
Vanessa & Sangeetha- relink and link both of u le =)

ok!
so many things happened in the week
between friends and love
things became alot worst den before...
there's alot of things i want to say

to my 4 best friends: u noe i will always love u gals de, nth will tear our friendship apart
and i can promise u tat even if now i hv laogong, nth much will change..
kk i can only say tat i wont be tat free all the time
i really hope tat u all will understand
i noe tat gwen, heimun and mandy alr accepted it but cass... srsly these days i dunnoe wat happenings
y all of the sudden u dun like mx when in the past u were so ok with us being together...
i noe tat u alr dun like me alr, and everytime will say things like not liking me and sort...
in the past i will treat it as i heard nth happened but till today i really cant stand it sia..
srsly i dun want to quarrel...
u r still my best friend no matter wat but den y cant u just accept..
or y everytime u not happy with me
u wont find me straight y must i go find out myself den i noe wats happening....
is not i dun want to find u to tell u wat i bu man
but is u dun even want to admit to me how can i go find u sia..
i wanted for u to say thru to me
but instead u r only showing me attitude whenever u not happy with me,
i noe ur attitude i understand but this time is way too much...
oh ya abt ur blog post once.. i alr know abt it... the one u not happy with me de
since u so unhappy with me pls just come straight to me to tell me..
i dun want to hear it thru rumors and stuff... or me just guessing...
im not any happier when things turn out this way....

Laogong : ^^ u noe u always been there for me whenever i need u de!!
and i will do the same, no matter wat i will be by ur side,
no matter it is thru thick or thin..
like u say since we stead there is lots of problems..
and most of the time we cant find the answer to those problems
and definately things tat happened today i cant help u with it
only can be by ur side and cannot even comfort u much..
even trying to make u smile and laugh from ur heart truly, was hard...
but laogong u noe srsly leh
ur smile and laughter can take away all my troubles
ur voice can make me calm down from any anger
u will always say the right words that can let me be so happy tat i could cry..
plus ur hugs can really make me feel secure and safe..
just u by my side is alr everything le
k.. maybe its becoming too mushy..
but srsly...
dun ever say u r alone le can ma...
i noe i might not be such a gd laopo yet
but i noe definately u r a VERY gd laogong le
so dun keep blaming urself or putting on a fake mask like i did before
rmb wat we promise just now ^^
no matter wat i will be there for u de, this i swear!!
love u till eternity....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMAN!!

2008-07-20T22:00:00.005+08:00

haha!!

surprise ma? put this pic^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

MANDY SOON HUI LING

MY BESTIE FRIEND <333

celebrated mandy's birthday ytd

went to her party organised by her church cell group

at queensway there

although didnt managed to stay for the whole day

end up went outing with my mum

sry abt it ah man!!

anyway had so much fun there!

was damn similar to Gb parties de lo!!^^

anyway here i would like to sing a birthday song for mandy!

(please pretend infront of u gt cake and present XP)

OHHHhhh..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU)

THERE'S LIONS AND TIGERS(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMAN)

AND THE MONKEYS LOVE YOU(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU)

^^ hope its enough to make u happy and smile^^

LOVE U LOTS <333

may all ur wishes come true, stay happy forever kk^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMUN!!

2008-07-11T00:04:00.008+08:00

surprise ma?! XD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY

SUM HEI MUN aka
PARTNER FOR LIFE/
HAO GER MEN/
WO DE TIAN GE/
ZHONG JI TIE KE REN and
WO MEN DE LAO DA!!<333
haha! finally count down to ur birthday le!

here a song delicate just for u
ooohhhh.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U
U R BORN IN THE ZOO (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U)
THERE'S LIONS AND TIGERS (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HEI MUN)
AND THE MONKEYS LOVE U!! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!)
haha! surprise ma?
XD
anyway!
im here to wish u a happy birthday
collect lots of gift and eat lots of cakes till ur button burst XD
may all ur wishes come true
and for our friendship to stay together forever and strong^^
once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

thanx for always being by my side
love u lots and lots!!<333
to my best friend ah mun^^

useless...

2008-07-04T00:43:00.003+08:00

feel very useless sia...
now he is sick
i aso cannot do anything..
only can pei by his side....
and dan xin...
is tat all i can do...
really wish i can do more..

somemore
everytime make him angry..
aso dunnoe the reason...
everytime he angry or sad, my heart like shattered...
really feel very useless lo
cannot even make him happy..
plus dun even noe the reason..
and i realised most of the time
i cannot really make him laugh..
just now i keep asking myself..
how much do i know him...
he knows wat im thinking
and he knows wat i like.. but me..
i cant even read wat he is thinking..
take me so long to realise tat he is angry..
not like him..
always noe wat im thinking,
and always noe when sometime is wrong...
useless sia...
im so useless...
im not doing a gd job as a stead...
damn...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ZL

2008-07-02T01:02:00.003+08:00

haha!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
TAN ZHEN LIANG!!!
MY KOR! XP
hehe!! ps ps!
now den post!!
didnt even sms him sia XP
zl ps!!
own u ur present first k XD
happy birthday again!

happy birthday cass and christabel!

2008-07-01T00:05:00.006+08:00

^^ ps no christabel photo
only hv cass's pic! surprise ma? XP late post

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15TH
TO BELOVED CASS and aso to CHRISTABEL!!
may all ur wishes come true! stay happy forever!
love cass as my bestfriend!
may our friendship last forever and strong^^
thanx for always being there
love u lots lots <333
and christabel as my gdfriend too!!=)

okok..
i recently dunnoe wat to blog sia
today abit sian sia!
coz laogong nv come sch
he sick
worried sia...
everyday will sure worrried for him de
but btr like tat ba^^
dun really noe how to take care of someone
but trying my very best
wondering if im doing a gd job on it...

today is aso NCC day plus where hongkong students
come to sch for two days too
everything held in the hall
so crowded!
so long nv been to the hall with the whole sch le!
so wasted like 1 period of eng
which was gd!
dun really like the new eng cher
i can just describe the rest of the sch
as BORING
but at least Heimun, Gwen and Mandy are bck in class
to pei me once again!
the FT period was still ok la
had fun watching the I Am Not Stupid 2
although only clips of it!
but still sch is boring sia
especially when i noe laogong not around in sch...
makes it more sian...

first thing to settle after sch was the GB thing
wonder if they could meet us early
seniors say they wanted to tok to us
but end up no
ok so it was such a pleasant tok as we expected
and i really guess tio abt wat we gg to tok abt
so long long "tok" we had
until i felt abit sick
really sick hor
dunnoe
weird weird de XP
hurried over to his house
had so less time there lo!
GB tok take up too much time
but it was a worth tok
laogong: really really sry! hai ni dan xin le! hai shi pian ni le.. dui bu qi!!
with him around is so much btr
without him aorund, feels like a bore...
oh ya
liang relax la!
noe u not really happy abt wat happened
but still LAX LA!

haiizz
my grandma admitted to the hospital again..
worried for her and my mum...
guess we need to be self prepared le
shes getting weaker by day...

another 16 more days

i love you always

sch reopen

2008-06-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

YO PEOPLE!
haha!!
was "bugged" by xinxin to blog! XD
LOL! jkjk!!
not tat meaning la!
haha! really gt tat long nv blog meh..
LOVE XINXIN ^^
LOVE AGNES too! alr tot u were dead and almost wanted to buried her! XD
jkjk!
haha!
laogong mixing well with my two BOBF sia
kidding around with xinxin!!
ps: laogong asked me to blog too!
xinxin!
haha! really treat him as kor ar?! XD
haha! if really treat him as kor
dunnoe wat to call to u leh!
of coz met u first la!
met u and agnes first ar!
^^ my first few best friends!

anyway did i mention sch reopen le?
well if nv!
here goes
yup

SCHOOL REOPEN LE!!

very last min sia!

now den say XP

sch reopen le

need study le

haiizz abit sian but still shld be fun

miss alot of my friends

especially Heimun, Mandy and Gwendolyn

they went SYF for quite some time

tmr gg to see their preview show

not the actualy day sia T_T

but shld be ok ba

faster come bck to class, u three!!

most of the class is slacking de

but really some like eng and maths

gt study lo

so must buck up le!!

JIAYOU!

iloveyoualways..dunforget

bck from japan

2008-06-20T16:40:00.002+08:00

haha!
realise tat come bck from japan quite long still hvent blog yet
XD
so hey everyone!
im bck from japan le!
came bck on 17th june in the early morning 0023am
its really HOME SWEET HOME
so nice to be bck!
but the weather is like OMG
HOT HOT HOT compared to jap the cold wind and nice weather XD
miss it sia
but i miss sg more!^^

so excited to be bck lo
coz so many things can do
plus i miss him so much la
yaya many people guess it but ask me btr ba
anyway!
really really LOVE 17th of june
will rmb always!no matter is wat time i aso will rmb^^
so most of the day is spent going out
since i been home
well so long nv in sg le
best is go out walk walk ar

oh ya!
FINALLY had ktv with liang le!
the one we been toking abt since the strting of the year
coz of her birthday wanted to open de
but of coz drag till now lo
but is was SO fun!
expect for some parts when kanna irriated
but most of the time is funfunfun!
somemore the funniest part
was when liang go disiao me
so go tickle her
end up like cat fight lo!
fell on the floor on chengyee
and almost hving liang falling on me! LOL lo
fall until very chu lu lo!
somemore wearing quite girlish leh
very bad image
especially in front of him
sad sia!
made him worried sia! but after tat go come and pick me up la^^
funniest was like chengyee keep saying
"eh dun fall on me! dun fall on me!" LOL XD
end up hai shi fell! XD
but ok la! everything was fun^^
oh ya nv mention who went and when was it
so it was just ytd 19th june
there were LiLiang, Chengyee, Nicole, Eric, his stead and his stead friend
plus of coz MingXing and me ar!^^
so ya fun but people were annoyed by alot of things
like eric's stead and friend were like wearing very very short shorts
somemore their clothes were like very kai fan
like going to the beach or like at geylang... u guys shld understand le ar...
especially the friend is like wearing over neck bra with a tee shirt over it lo
and for goodness sake la
its like gg to the beach one lo
but we in ktv, aircon room for crying out loud!
still wear till like tat
not as if they dunnoe lo
after awhile lend jacket from us
dun want liao ask eric throw bck end up hit liang and nic!
smart rite!
dunnoe la!
dun like them jiu shi liao
the five of us dun dun like them lo!

Eric, no offense la!
we dun really care abt who u stead with not like we dun care
but den its really the way they dress we dun like lo!
ps hor
nv tell u
but really no offense de la

imagining

2008-06-13T12:43:00.003+08:00

ok srsly hv nth to do..
Pls read here before u continue!
this post is writing how im feeling now
if not interested
pls head to the links or the red X button of the right hand corner

wats the point of arguing when it nv ends..
feeling abit hot and cold here
fever? or just imagining?
maybe its coz i want to come down with fever so much ba
so i can rest and stop saying things tat i dun mean
i rmb last time when i was small
i strted to imagine things like
ohh.. wat if i faint in sch
will the person i like come or will i be send to the hospital
and this and tat happen
my imagination very strong sia
want to stop thinking aso cannot
tats y even dreams aso come out weird weird de
hv u ever realise tat sometimes ur dream protraits wat u want in real life
or wat u want to discover
nightmares are just when u imagine too much
so u dream abt it
maybe my theroy is wrong la
but tat works for me
*shit crying alr! wth, btr not let my aunt see*

realise tat i imagine so much coz my mum aso de same
wow!
genes from her
so its not surprising if i imagine myself in an accident here in jap
or imagining myself nv coming bck
or going bck as a soul, ghost
after tat will strt thinking will anyone care for me there
if really die liao
funny rite
i hate the word die
coz i nv want to see people around me die..
but im always imagining myself dying
or dun mind myself dying too
but nv i want those around me to die..
tats y i hate it when they say die..
thinking whether anyone is waiting for me
i noe alot of my friends read these will sure scold me de
say they care for me
i noe
i always noe
but maybe its just my imagination ba..
thinking so much..
srsly sometimes i will wonder
if i disappear from the world who will care
and most likely they will forget abt me after awhile
maybe cry cry for like few weeks den wont liao
who noes.. maybe yes maybe no..

so now u all noe le ba
im not tat optimistic as i really am when im in front of u guys
im not acting sometimes i really am
but i same
will always think of the worst
and much much more den u can imagine
coz my imagination alr too much tat i can handle
one day can really hv my head burst if think so much
tats y most of the time
i dun find myself in a gd position to persuade people,
give advise or comfort them
coz im the same
*omg getting a major headache just thinking now*

i hate myself majority of the time
for not being able to do this and tat
for example
i hate myself for not being able to help my friends
i hate myself for always doing the wrong things
i hate myself for making him upset or angry
i hate myself for not being there when friends need me
i hate myself for im not being a gd friend
and many more
cant help it
i stay strong in front of others
but nv when im alone
i act strong in front of others
but nv alone
people might say i always act
and i agree
coz most of the time im acting
dun most of the people too...
tats y there was a time
i really wanted to disappear from the world
as people say
im sick and tired..
i know its stupid
but most people will think of it
its nt surprising
it just how do u handle it

i find im really ridicous
when i get angry over small things
when i scold my friends for thinking negatively
but i myself is the same..
im really tired for putting a fake mask..
but y im i complaining here
other people aso de same ar
putting a fake mask
there is always a saying of
" u might seem strong outside but actually u really need someone to care for u"
sometimes i thinking im really tat kind of person
but i nv want my friends to wry for me
nor my family
or him...
i rather i take everything for them..
i dun need others to take care of me..
or so i think..
wat is the best for me i nv knew..

i imagine alot of things
like being with him at this place and tat
thinking this will happen and tat will happen
but im not sure will it really happen for real
as i say im just thinking
alot of things can happen within one day
which is 24 hr
for the half of the day im smiling while smsing him
and for the next sec
my whole smile can gone
coz weird things strted coming out
from smiling, i would want to cry
but in front of others tat fake mask comes up again
and when i enter bck into the room
the mask drops off immediately
and tears flow down
*like now, my fake mask is on, i holding bck my tears*
and in another sec from crying u can just smile bck
just tat funny u noe...
24 hrs
early morning i was still happily smiling
but now.. the whole mood change le
miracle rite.. wat time holds for us
so now i will still be thinking and thinking
imagining things ba...
maybe the next sec im ok
or maybe i will be crying..
weird day..

u noe i wll always trust and believe u de ar
not matter wat...
its my fault for always saying the wrong words..
but i nv meant wat i said
i noe it upsets u..
but it too upsets me..
im fine le..
no matter wat..
i will change for the btr...

bro went bck... moody much

2008-06-13T12:20:00.002+08:00

hai...
bro alr left for the airport le
now alone at home with my aunt
parents went to the airport with my bro
gg to miss him so much
not the same without him
haii..

2day shld be especially moody ba
everytime thing like these sure happen de
think when i gt bck home
its not gg to be any diff rite
it will just be again de me
always saying wrong words
in everyway i do
FRECK Myself la
always been trusting u ar...
always been believing u..
y do u hv to say like tat
i just dun get it
i only put a ? when im asking a qn
but den still my fault rite..
dunnoe which one is btr
for me to be a mute so i wont say wrong words
or for my hands to be crippled so i wont type the wrong words
someone choose and do for me can
getting quite sick of doing all these wrong things
and making him upset..
arghhh!!
im so ridicous!!!

moody day

2008-06-12T17:59:00.002+08:00

actually today not in a very gd mood
i dun feel like blogging anymore
feel like ending my blog here
no matter is toking in msn
or on phone
or smsing
or just typing in the blog
i always say the wrong things..
gd for nth sia
end up arguing over those things...
end up both of us moody
my mood for shopping disappear
only want to cry..
dunnoe whether want to go out...
just want to be alone and cry..
everytime i always do wrong thing
hate myself..

bck from tokyo

2008-06-12T17:20:00.003+08:00

yo everyone!
bck from tokyo!
stayed over at there for 2day 1night
anyway
my bro gg bck tmr le T_T
will miss him sia!
without him sure weird weird de
no one pei me play le
haiiz..

so went off to the train station on 11th
around 8-9 like tat
interesting train experience sia
the train transport is like MUCH MUCH MUCH more complicated den ours in sg
cannot sleep in train if u r alone XD
anyway
the first time sit train alr went wrong way le
ps lo
went to Harajuku
shldnt hv go there lo
dun even noe the way to shibuya
end up just walk to Shibuya
nice experience
called it a day after walking for very long
end up aso nv buy anything
expect for my mum buying her perfume
(was wishing she wouldnt buy it)
checked in to our hotel for the night
at Akabane, Tokyo Inn
its was so much btr den the one at hong kong
it was like 5 times btr although its quite a small inn
took a break and fell asleep on the bed
WA!
u noe the bed is double bed lo!
means it just ONE QUEEN SIZE BED
and im sleeping with my bro lo
he actually offered to sleep on the chair
but dun want kebo him rite
we complained y dun hv 2 single bed de
she said FULL HOUSE
my face was like T_T
my mind was NOOO...
coz my bro snooze one lo!
he keep saying is heavy breathing!
ok la if its heavy breathing de hua, its really DAMN HEAVY la
i regret not taking his offer of him sleep on the chair
T_T
woke up in the midnite coz of sms(not blaming u srsly)
wanted to go bck to sleep
but tat HEAVY BREATHING is like LOUD till really cannot sia
want to sleep bck aso cannot
close my eyes but my ears not close lo
keep hearing -.-
lay down there for like 15mins still cannot sleep
give up liao
went to take the earpiece listen to music to sleep
one bad and nice experience tat both of us dun want liao
LOL

he woke up to complained tat i took away all the blanket
LOL XD
he aso did de same!
anyway enough of all these le la!
haha mei wan mei liao de
im loving japanese de game shows lo!!
funny till siao la!
late at nite both of us watch till Laugh Out VERY LOUD
damn nice, gg to miss those shows
especially my bro
i gt 3 more days to watch
he dun hv le T_T
plus my two niece
Alice-chan and Sesiru-chan
gg to miss them alot sia!
two of them so cute! everytime see us sure run to us de
especially me XP
coz girl girl wat
they really very cute! always like to sit on our laps de
too cute! *on cloud 9*

anyway bck to the topic
2day went to Akihabara where lots of CD DVD,anime and electronics things are sold
bought so much figurings bck there
and anime DVD
but still gt alot of things hvent buy
coz its raining so very hard to shop
went to Shinjuku for a little shopping for my mum's things
before heading bck to my aunt house!
so gd to be home
at least there is a proper meal for us to eat XP
outside dun even noe how to order
jiu always eat fast food
somemore fast food like KFC
always gt smokers de
not gd!
damn hate the smell lo
close friends all shld know i very ming gan to those de
not only KFC hv lo mac aso hv de
damn hate! need to hold my breath all the time!
now im home its so gd!

still in japan

2008-06-09T19:55:00.003+08:00

YO!
hey guys im bck!
but not really in sg
still in japan at my aunt house!
ps guys!
will be here till 16!
my parents went to extend!
but my bro gg bck himself lo
so gd
coz he hv test immediately when sch reopen
so he need to go bck study
so ya he gg bck himself
GD RITE
i actually can choose to go bck with him on 13 de
but den parents ask me stay -.-
so ok lo
anyway can shop

I MISS EVERYONE SO MUCH!!
I MISS SG!!
my 4 best friends and so much more friends like liliang
hehe manage to call liang twice
I MISS HIM SO MUCH TOO!!

cant wait to go bck
burt still enjoy the jap life while still can
anyway lets update alittle of wat happen here

4th june
reached japan after a 6hrs flight
the sun was alr up at 5-6am here in japan
and when u convert bck to our timing is like 4-5am
we are 1 hr behind them
the nicest flight i had coz i see the beautiful nite scenary of singapore
all the lights tat "shape" the land
and we flew from a nite sky to the morning sky!
which is a magnificant view!!
i nv slept for the whole time
expect the time when i looking out the window
and slept for 15-30mins XP
the air outside was cold de lo
so nice to sleep
majority of the time was watching the tv show provided
i forgot to mention
i met mr kek at the airport before i leave sia!!
LOL
and showed mandy around the airport inside
only at the gate there
manage to went online before flying off
coz gt wireless internet in sg
~~i really really miss him sia..~~
so our
1st stop: Osaka Castle
2nd stop : Shinsaibashi (Osaka shopping)
3rd stop : USJ Keihan (Universal Studio Official Hotel)
4th stop : Universal Studio
so this is how it went
be prepared tat there will be
ALOT of pictures and videos when i come bck XP

5th june
was quit suay lo
this is the only day in our package tour tat rained
from Osaka to Kyoto
when its raining, its hard to shop or walk
1st stop : kiyomizu temple
2nd stop : Nishijin Textile Centre (kimono show)
3rd stop : Kingakuji Temple
4th stop : Hotel Nikko Toyohashi
5th stop : shopping at Itoyokado

to follow my heart.. the promise will be fulfilled..

2008-05-28T19:08:00.005+08:00

well im bck again to blog!=)
cant believe tat the holidays came alr
YAY!
haha! means my holiday to Japan is closing in=)
how great is tat!

well alr gt quite some things i hv to buy for friend

1. dinika's pikachu

2.liliang's white tie

but these are just things they asked me to buy on behalf on them

they are presents tat i MUST buy rite

especially for my FOUR BEST FRIENDS Gwen,Cass,Heimun and Mandy

can nv forget their presents de

plus addition

Liliang's extremely late birthday present

Jasmine's souvenior

Agnes Chain's souvenior

MX's present

XinXin ,Agnes and ZL's presents

will try to buy those presents

coz i really dun hv much time there

will be gg only 7 days but is following tour de

so cant really go shop u noe

i will try my best to buy

alr gt some things in my mind to help u shop le

hehe!

getting so excited abt gg to Japan

only left 6 more days till den

well at least im still in s'pore for the time being

someone alr flew bck to his country=)

yup

chen ming xing went bck to china for two weeks

just depart from singapore in the early morning at 8.55am

hmm..

i think im becoming like some reporter like tat LOL!

so those tat gg overseas must tell me aso

so i can report

LOL!

he will be bck by 11th of june

even later den me!XD

oie hurry bck hor! or else i will be bored till hell leh

come bck safe and sound kk

there is alot of things i want to tell u so u btr hurry bck or else i wont say...

ytd went out with mx and liliang to bugis to shop for clothes

surprise surprise

im the only one who didnt bought anything

not i dun want to buy

but rather no money plus dun feel like spending tat cash! LOL!

see liang bought tat dress i really feel like buying sia

$29 for a dress not bad leh

if my mum was there de hua

i sure ask her buy with the cardigan

but too bad lo T_T

even MX bought clothes sia

siao liao la!

next time dun want to go shopping with empty wallet le

but suay suay

by the time want to go out of bugis street

started raining le

very heavily somemore

no choice take cab bck home

hehe! paid by mx! generous(dunnoe how to spell)

so went liang's house to dry off and put away her clothes

before heading to mx's house to put down his clothes

OMG!

his house de big big soft toy turtle is like DAMN DAMN CUTE

cant even resist it! LOL!

imagine asking me to hit it when im angry

cant even do it

same as liang

we two keep hugging it lo! LOL

went to vivo for a short while

mx go joined his friends while liang and me went to hv our "lunch"

at food republic plus did abit of shopping again

she went to bought a same skirt as mine at Red2

(although she dunnoe until i told her abt it on the phone at nite)

plus i bought a hairspray for myself

at least i bought something rite^^
after tat had to rush home

or else my dad will strt nagging again

but well.. there are things tat happened in between of the whoole story.. its btr left unsaid rite=)

hmm just realised a nice habit to release my anger

1. is to pack my room (since it is a TIRING job to do so, my friends will noe rite)

2.ton for the night which aso mean dun sleep

well.. ytd was a day tat i had alot of thinkings

so ya of coz need to ton rite

ton with myself! LOL!

slept at 3-6

before waking up to chat with mx

as he proceed to the airport and the plane

i damn gd rite! pei u tok instead of being a pig

anyway didnt feel like gg to sch lo!

coz ytd kana rain, think coming down with flu and cough

not sure

but btr not

will find one day to go history consultation again

after a long chat with mx when he finally went on the plane

went bck to sleep again

although i did say i dun want to sleep rite XP

slept until rained and my bro came bck to pester me to pei him go chinatown square

so ok la!

bought quite a couple of things tat made me BANKRUPT with a EMPTY wallet

T_T

hate tat feeling u noe

but guess i hv to strt saving up again

saw things tat i want but no money

sad sad thing

Long time nv see gwen,cass,heimun and mandy

wonder how they are doing

wait.. it been only two days

ok.. time is moving slowly

but sometimes is for the best rite=)

oh ya mandy rmb the promise tat i told u abt

the promise i made to myself

by june de

well... think i gg to fulfilled it le

and then i wish to follow wat my heart thinks

hope tat no matter wat my decision is

as my close best friend u will understand me

and still be as close kk

coz no matter wat u gals are still as important to me

even if global change is gg to turn the world apart

hmm.. saying abit too mushy le rite

LOL XD

kk will stop le!

love u gals lots! plus rest of my friends too

and if im not wrong u too....

i just need ur trust and ears...

2008-05-20T21:26:00.003+08:00

i can predict tat this whole week is gg to be terrible
becoz heimun, gwen and mandy are gg for syf for the whole day
which is one word
SIANZZZ!!
but lucky still gt nicole to pei me^^
LOL!
for today the first two periods is like free period lo
supppose to hv maths de
but end up dun hv
coz mrs low didnt noe abt it!
so shuang la!
nic and me draw and listen to music
but den for english not exactly fun
kanna scolded for being late by mdm abby choo
her english sliang(not sure how to spell), is just the way she speak
eng, so different from last yr
TOTALLY CHANGED
sound quite like dinika's english
but den more of ms joanna tan's english
wonder y so much things changed

did u ever notice tat mr chua's voice can so call make people sleepy
LOL!
its ok de la!
just tat we ourselves are sleepy
but sometimes its really coz lesson too boring tat cause us to yawn
nic slept in class lo!
so shuang rite
i let her sleep while i "concentrate" in the class
trying my very best to keep my eyes open! XD
but at least i took down notes for the three of them
coz we will be i/c to teach the SYF people who were absent
STRESS!!
wonder how am i suppose to teach...
lucky recess was the same with the three of them
plus CASS came bck today!
after so long nv see her!!
miss her sia!
early in the morning i still tot she nv come!
phew~
had our usual recess before heading for maths
ok la!didnt learn much of new things
so u three dun need to wry^^
we only went thru the paper tat we did before heading to LTA last thurs
rmb?
besides tat we didnt learn much
most of the time we were toking abt the results
and the holiday hw
wat mrs low say was quite true leh
u see ar
after june holiday, we only hv FOUR months before sch close
but den cut down the 2 weeks of post exam activity
and the 2 weeks of exams
we only hv THREE months before EOY
i cant imagine how am i gg to cope my studies sia
we really need to practice maths weekly and not
just last min
so must work hard!!
after maths there was like no FT la!!
and was only 1pm!!
weehee!^^
so decided to play bball with nic
but den cant go out to play coz ltr she gt
the humanities inter UG competiton just like last yr
but im not in^^
so had to play in sch! the weather was like DAMN HOT LA!!
can die from dehyration u noe!! LOLXD
but srsly la!
tried a few new things like lay up and some others
not perfect so dun ask me play with pros XD
after a while SYF over le, nic need to go GB
so stick with ah mun they all until dancers went to dance(again)
and heimun and cass went home
before heading to play bball with jas and agnes
after awhile stop and pei da agnes and agnes xiao fei zhu to go buy things to eat
opposite! chat quite alot
after nic's gb over le
went to play bball again!
noe i feng le
gt to reasons to play bball so many times in the hot weather
1. to practice my bball skills
2.to vent my anger and saddness ba

things arent really gg as plan u noe
but i can manage somehow
haha! agnes noe u wry for me la
but im fine!! boku genki nata!
liliang aso!^^ thanx
met jas and mandy at bm mac
where they say wat happen recently
abit like share their tots
but was mostly jas la
she say one topic den we tok abt it and drag further XD
mandy's realise de DA DAO LI:

1.if boys arent bad, girls wont like
2.pretty girls are mostly flirts(8 out of 10 pretty girls)
3.first impression are always the strongest, no matter wat happen the first impression is true

well do u agree?
i agree with them!!
we tok alot at bm mac till like 7plus tat i lost track of them
rush home end up quarreled with my dad again
ok la, i wasnt studying
but i can stay out rite
i did study abit la for gdness sake!
sry tat i lied but den u nv speak to me in a nice manner before
strt toking jiu shi scream le
how can i tell u!
somemore everytime since young jiu like tat
wat can i say u tell me la
everytime u think u rite, will win me by toking even louder
even when i make sense and is rite, u aso wont admit
and scold me for ding zui
wat more can i do la
change my mood all of the sudden... u think i happy ar
sec sch is the time where best friends are made
and our best time are spend
where most of the freedom are given
y cant u just like me be with my friends for alittle while longer
i will be home de ar
not as if i wont like tat
this is still my home tat i will return too
u always scold me, make me feel more like not coming bck(just like u want me sometimes)
i noe u care abt me in a diff way
but can at least listen to me in peace ma
tats all i ask for.. to believe me too
i will nv turn bad no matter wat
if i do I RATHER DIE!
just come bck late jiu scold me turn paikia
u nv think how i will feel de lo! u noe how much it hurts to me, hearing tat from u....
i noe how u feel when im not home safe
tats y i will rush home asap when the time gets late
but den the same thing always happen
how u want me to be happy at home...
haiizzz...

i realised tat im a btr listener than cheering people up...
i can crack my head but end up still cant cheer tat person
all i can do is just be beside them...
i could only listen to their problems and give advise or share my tots
i think i rather stay like tat
listening to others and help others in any possible way
if they need me...
i cant keep my promise to u..
coz sometimes i really cant say.. coz it will change ur mood too
u want to be angry with me jiu go ahead ba...
i nth to say..
but den i will be a listener to everyone who need someone to say things out too
i will try my best to be a gd friend..=)

wat can i do now..

2008-05-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

tmr isnt exactly my day
for the first time i feel like leaving the house to go out
maybe its because of reading the smses ba
thinking bck to the past i cant change
and i cant help to remember everything i wish tat could be remain in the present
after reading
i realised how much lies will told in the past
and how much empty promises will make
tat everyone always forget in the time tat passes us by
and i cried for tat..
for the things i longed for, for the things i do not and for the things i regretted
i dun feel like smiling.. i dun feel like laughing...
all i feel like is to know wat is the best for me
im confused...
but den wat is there more to do...
ur blog post everytime does not fail to sadden me
no matter is it abt mandy or qiaoting...

2day and sat

2008-05-11T23:36:00.004+08:00

Today

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!

TO ALL MOTHERS!

gave my present to mum!

at 12+am!

hehe!

loves loves!

went out with my parents to tiong today

to buy white blouse for prefect de

buy until quite ex

but ok la! bought one black and one white! XD

aso went to buy laptop bag and alot of things

for our jap tour coming up^^

and went to eat long john silver too!

LOL!!

but after tat was not feelin very well..

last nite aso the same..

cant believe ytd i hv to hug the big big boster just to sleep last nite

weird...

ok nvm..

shop for our grocery at ntuc before heading bck home with my grandma too..

did i mention tat i saw AGNES CHAIN MING MING

at the mrt there!

she goes up while i go down!

she shouted so loud sia! shouted "YY!"

end up my mum laugh at me!

for the whole time at home

was like damn engross in watching BULL FIGHTING

didnt even ate dinner sia

the fact tat im not hungry is the reason y la

tmr gt sch

btr go sleep le!

byebb..

Yesterday

i almost forgot to blog abt ytd!
hehe!
i had so much fun with my bro XD
went out on a date with him LOL {exagerating rite}
my parents both went out on themselves to watch concert!
so we gt another free day for ourselves!
so of coz went out la!
went out damn late sia
abt 6.30pm den went out!
my bro keep blaming me sia! say wat i keep watching drama dun go out
ok la!
the BULL FIGHTING drama damn nice to watch la!
falling in love with it!
i agree with mandy tat actually sheng xiu shld be with zi cong
LOL!! but den now see the other two still ok le la!
ok enough of the drama
so now lets get bck to topic
hehe!
went to takashimaya there
orchard really gt alot of diff things and diff person at nite
even in the MRT i feel very weird sia
gt like these two adult guys looking at me sia
giving me those suspicious look and abit pervert look tat kind
alot of people mistaken me and my bro as couple sia!
LOL!
I LOVE MY BRO!!
hehe! we really very close de ar! can really be like couple le la
i gt lean on his shoulder de leh!
ok la! in case my bro read this go kill me ltr
LOL! he really is a gd bro
when i need him tat time
he will be there like a bf like tat!
my BEST BRO!
i really really LOVE him!
sometimes he might be annoying and irriated but still LOVE him la!!
so went to the bookshop there
to look at comics! but is way too expensive
so must SAVE SAVE SAVE!
leave the shop to go get something to eat!
walao! suppose to eat Seoul Garden de!
but end up tat bro say queue too long and too ex
so go somewhere else!
LOL XD
wanted to eat pepper lunch
end up really too long le
so eat yoshinoya!
end up we spend all the money on food 2day coz after tat went to some place at B2
where sell alot of food of small stores!
we ate alot la!
all jap lo! we two ate jap food for the whole day la!
LOVESS! LOL!
after tat went bck to tiong to get a present for mum!
coz tmr is MOTHERS' DAY!!
since my bro bought a $69 pearl pendant for her
i bought a $59 diamond earing from SK there!
so gd rite! LOL!!
my bro was so lazy to take bus so end up take taxi bck!
end up was a gd choice la!
195 bus was end up just in front of us only lo!
had so much fun with my bro!!
hehe!!
hope my parents go more concert! so my bro and i can go out more!

a terrible sunday

2008-05-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

ok today is terrible...
my mood defintely went down the drain
since when did so many things happen to me i aso dunnoe..
since when did i bring so much pain and hurt to someone i aso dunnoe...
de only thing i know is how a horrible person i became
these past few months
xinxin... i really dunnoe whether if i can become like u anot..
become someone tat strong as u...
i really feel like giving my life.. den to forever stay in this kind of life can i?
i feel like giving him up.. giving up the past tat i had with him...
i feel like stoping bring hurt to both of them...but everytime i fail to do so..
am i a failure in everything? maybe i really am...
i just hate myself...
i feel so useless...
wat do we hv to do to keep living our lives this way...
people say tat as people grow up, there will be more dun hv in our life..
but it coz of this kind of dun hv where we strt to grow strong for ourselves
and find courage..
is this true....

prefect investiture rehearsal

2008-05-09T19:31:00.004+08:00

tiring tiring day..
had to wake up at 7.30
to reach sch by 8 so tat hairie and i could rehearsal the script
a lazy bum like me shld be sleeping in late XD
end up was late by 5 mins XP
went through a new script and had a few rehearsals
roughly to know how every will go on tat day
so for the whole day i was talking and talking non stop for the emcee
even when we went up the hall was still practicing with hairie
but had so much fun with him!
it was not as wat as i expected as from the start, he was quite quiet at the start
and quite nervous but now he open up le la!
he can even joke and pull a prank on me sia!
haha!! we both did la! play with the mike to sabo Dhurkesh aso! LOL

at the hall there practice over and over again
hungry and tired from standing sia..
once in a way sit down and rest
went to draw blazer and went bck home asap!
bought lunch and quickly went to bed!
cant believe i couldnt even watch tv lo!
haha!
aso realise tat i hv 4 cuts on my leg and elbow
from ytd swimming!
cant believe sia
i too violent sia!
so total i gt 5 cuts on my leg and elbow
1 of it is from bball when playing with jas they all
noe i too violent le!
kk think i gtg le!
im hv to sleep le la!

END OF ALL EXAMS

2008-05-08T18:42:00.006+08:00

WOOHOO!!
finally our exams are over!
the last exam we had today was English oral
for all 3E1 students!
so means ytd was a SLACK day for us! LOL
oral no need to study much rite^^
hehe!
hurray!! everyone lets celebrate!! XD

2day mood is like gg up and down!
well early in the morning wasnt tat in the mood {the usual morning blue me}
didnt even dare to tok to u even though u behind me.. even pretended i didnt saw u..wat was i thinking..
study abit for oral although not much use at all
and ltr helped huai ao to do his duty since he is still sick
mandy couldnt help coz she was on standby for pledge taking
end up she really did hv to say the pledge!
hehe!
MANDY! thanx for accompanying me to the foyer!
well.. after everything went to the foyer there to rest and chatted
with kimberly, xueting and her friend
end up realised tat we cant be there lo.. =.=
i realised only today ur eyes were on me the whole time.. i really wonder y.. everything i back to u... ur eyes were on me.. wat r u thinking..?
so went up to the humanties room for oral!
heng ar! the sequence goes different! so no need wait so long!
1-22 was at one room and 23-43 was at the other room
so i was at the 1-22 room there with heimun and mandy^^ gwen was 23!
so it was like first row, 1-11
second row, 12-22
den the sequence to go in was 1 and 12 then 2 and 13
so i was 15! went in quite fast!
the oral was ok la! although the picture discussion was a failure
but the rest was still ok
after tat ran to go find mrs de souza for the prefect emcee thing
hehe!
i forgot to mention tat Prefect Invesitute is coming next tue
so im the MC on tat day means i gt no post in the EXCO T_T
nvm la! dun want so much stress on myself anyway{although matter abit nia XP}
finally gt to know my co-emcee, Hairie from 1N2, prefect nominee
hehe!! he is fun to work with
so nice to gt to know him
aso gt to know Gina's, my junior from GB and prefect, friends
they were waiting for mrs desouza too
so i gt to tok to them and joke around plus gossip abit!^^
hehe!
was in charge of teaching my co-emcee
he was really nervous
well expected isnt it!
first timer is always like tat! well he will get use to it eventually!
i saw myself in him u know! he was exactly like me when i was doing the first MC job!
LOL! reading so fast like in a hurry
and shivering abit
haha!! good old times in the past^^
YAY!
mrs de souza said i gt improvement in the emcee speech and i taught hairie well!
so gd to be praised!^^
rush home with liliang and jasmine
so tat we can go swimming at safra with mandy,gwen, heimun and cass!
had to get everything ready!
had alot of chitchat with jasmine and liang
apparently not everyone is on a gd mood 2day
saw eric when walking to safra!
LOL! his hair so short tat i didnt recongise him! XD
lucky the small rain only come like less den 30mins
so we were still able to swim!
had some problems with the entering of the pool but everything was fine afterwards

ok la mandy
ya was abit angry with u just now during swimming
coz its like we alr went in the swimming pool
after we convince u to come swimming and not other day
just coz of goggles u dun want to swim le
i really abit pekchek la
i dun really like last min change of mindset
tats y didnt really stick to u guys at the start!
wanted to let myself cool off before joining u guys in case i moody den make u guys moody too
ps leh.. all of the sudden angry over such a small thing..
u had to bear with tat kind of attitude of mine.. sry
but everything was fine after a few tok and play!
liliang went home first coz she had something to do!
Xue Ting and Yu Xian were so kind enough to drop by to see me at the swimming pool!
LOL!!
liang dun think too much le kk...
its not ur prob de..
after swimming so much in the deep pool alone and swimming,slacking in the medium pool
plus playing around,relaxing in the baby pool
finally decided to go bck home and take a shower!
hehe!
as usually went to Ya Kun Kaya toast there to eat
was so starved!
but den jasmine went bck home first
she wanted to eat proper meal!
oh ya! JASMINE HU
u make SPOIL my mouse le la! T_T
haii...
so took a few pics but cant upload them yet! maybe the next post!
hehe! ate quite alot and had a few chitchats
on how people changed since sec3..
its so true lo!
haii..
nvm!
after all our chitchats and laughter
went to arcade there to play two rounds of game!
the dancing game!
LOL! play until siao
hehe! the best two teams was always with heimun de!
LOL! heimun so pro sia!
cass left early, mandy and heimun went home abit ltr
gwen and i went bck my house first
coz she had stomachache, couldnt really bear!
had so much fun chitchatting with her again!^^
even saw two lunatics when walking to the bus stop
by the window, probably half naked{or full}
shouting all of the suddenly lo!
scared me and her sia!!
Gwen!! i so good rite! pei u go bus stop
although only until over head bridge!LOL!
head bck home alone after tat
and here i am
typing the blog lo!
getting sleepier by the min!
zzz..maybe shld catch some nap le
hope tmr will be a btr day!

let things be clear

2008-05-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

ok once and for all let this be clear ba
this is MY BLOG
if gt anything you want to ask de hua
ask me dun ask anyone else
not everyone noe wat im toking abt
as i said if u dun like me
pls go ahead and press the cross button on the right hand corner

no much things to say le
nights everyone

the difference between love and like

2008-05-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

well i found something interesting
as i surf the net
i found a blog post by a friend
abt the dfference between love and like
here it goes

当你站在你爱的人面前,你的心跳会加速
当你与你爱的人四目交投,你会害羞
但当你站在你喜欢的人面前,你只感到开心
但当你与你喜欢的人四目交投,你只会微笑.
当你与你爱的人对话,你觉得难以启齿
当你爱的人哭,你会陪她一起哭
但当你和你喜欢的人对话,你可以畅所欲言
但当你喜欢的人哭,你会技巧的安慰她.
当你不想再爱一个人,你要闭上眼睛并忍着泪水
当你不想再喜欢一个人,你只要掩住双耳!

喜欢，是一种心情
爱，是一种感情
喜欢，是一种直觉
爱，是一种感觉
喜欢，可以停止
爱，没有休止
喜欢一个人，特别自然
爱一个人，特别坦然
喜欢一个人，有时候盼和他在一起
爱一个人，有时候怕和他在一起
喜欢一个人，不停的和他争执
爱一个人，不停的为他付出
喜欢一个人，希望他可以随时找到自己
爱一个人，希望可以随时找到他
喜欢一个人，总是为他而笑
爱一个人，总是为他而哭
喜欢，是执着
爱，是值得
喜欢就是喜欢，很简单
爱就是爱，很复杂
喜欢你，却不一定爱你
爱你，就一定很喜欢你
其实，喜欢和爱仅一步之遥
但，想要迈这一步
就看你
是喜欢迈这一步
还是爱迈这一步。。。Embarrassed
so this is how it goes
if u want the english version de hua
i can try to translate for you
leave a tag at the tagboard if u want

credit to: ♥ PuPPiз ♥ ◕_◕ ♂ 【* 孤独の美眉 *】♀

mid year exams still gg on

2008-05-02T19:06:00.004+08:00

hey everyone!
ps so long nv update le!
well mid year exam is still here
and not yet gone!
so ya
dun really want to use com
wanted to concentrate on studies more
{but still not really concentrating}

hehe!!
2day history paper was over by 9.05am
damn early
but den decided to go home for awhile
wanted to rest
but intruders later come running in my house! LOL!
kk la! too rude le!
is just Jasmine, Mandy and Agnes only^^
dun wry my door will always be open for you LOL!
same goees for my dearest best friends
Agnes Ang and Denise Lee XinXin
i wait for u both to invade my house after mid year kk^^
did the same usual thing with mandy and jas
play mahjong but this time in tthe study room with air con
coz was using com ma
toking to yiwei plus just strted using the com
so dun feel like gg outside
(oh ya yiwei, noe tat u decided to continue but den try to forget ba.. know not easy but let time pass and rmb to find someone u can tell ur feelings to)
so played a few rounds with the three of them before deciding to go play pool at safra
but den JASMINE HU
made MANDY SOON angry sia!
sian lo!! tsktsktsk
end up i gt to think of alot of ideas to make her laugh^^
well do alot of lame things i nv do de lo!
those two still lay down on my bed there take video and laugh
agnes still the best
at least pei me do le^^
MANDY AR!!
PLEASE PLEASE DUN POST THE VIDEOS KK! LOVE YOU^^
finally gt her to smile bck and go to safra
to find liliang too
weee!! finally noe how to play pool le!
last time huai le and jian hui teach still not tat ok yet
this time at least went in a few times!
i even jump ball and went right in the hole{dun think so much, the ball tat went in was white}
so proud of myself! hehe!!XD
played for an hour den the next hour jas and liang K match!
so the three of us there gossip and complained ba!
LOL!
bought cup noodles and went bck home
played a few more rounds of mahjong before they head home
mandy damn funny la!
keep on disiaoing huai ao on the phone
end up jasmine and i keep laughing and laughing

ps now need to be abit emo le
dun feel like reading de hua can go press the red button on the top right hand corner
it just tat every single day tat passed
sure bring tears and unhappiness de
no one day will hv total happiness de
everyday get worser by the time
its hard to pretend nth had happen
its hard to pretend not see some things
its hard to stop tears from flowing down
even if nth has happen, tears will just flow down
when i think bck to the past
i cant stop thinking of wat i did wrong
after reading XinXin's blog i really felt like going bck to the past more and more
when we are 3-5 years old
we cant really rmb now
but den we were so oblivious to the things around us
we dun need to wry abt anything
just hv to live in the present
there were no problems in our life
people who had walked passed our lifes at tat time
we would forget easily
unlike now..
every single thing tat happen will be craved deep in our hearts and mind
leaving either a scar or memory of the good or bad..
and by the age of 11-15
we will start to imagine things for better or worse
we will start fanstasizing
thinking about the future, the past and now
thinking wat would happen and wat wont
and when we start thinking..
more disappointment comes about and more shattered hearts are produced
{idea orginiated from XinXin=) }
i always wonder how can people just simple ignored
those tat they had relationship before
their life came together forming a road
but was separated, and parted in two roads..
they act as if they dun even noe each other
i had a wise word from my mum
those tat you are coming about with, dun take them for granted
everyone of those beside you actually had a fate with you
tats y they are in ur life
just like how fated u are with ur family, to be mum, dad and sibilings
those tat dun hv fate with u are those who just walk pass ur life
without knowing who you are
since we hv fate with each other
arent we suppose to treasure each other more
open ur eyes to things around u.. there might be a surprise just around the corner
i really feel like gg bck to those times
where i dun need to think so much abt life
gg bck to pri sch is enough for me too
but i will NV regret the friends i made now
i only regret the mistakes tat i made over and over again
causing people to be hurt over me...
how great life would be if everyone would just be in their pri sch
regardless of whether we were childish or not
at least i know we reall had fun just playing around

henderson bonding day / bowling competition

2008-04-05T16:04:00.003+08:00

hehe!!

srsly had a great time 2day

LOVE 2DAY SO MUCH!!becoz u were there all day longwhereicanseeyou

as all hendersonians noe

today is

henderson bonding day

cum bowling competition at Mount Faber Safra

so today went to support the prefects

wanted to play but den btr not la

ltr paiseh myself LOL

early morning at 8am alr woken up by my mum!

so waited for mandy's call while trying to make myself fall asleep again

finally met up with her at the bus stop

i really hv to say i hvent get used to my hair lo!

keep making my hair over and over again

oh ya i forget to mention

CUT MY HAIR YTD^^

while this time i really let the hair stylist decide on wat is best for me

but of coz when she cut, will ask me la!

went with Mandy^^

she do treatment for her hair

i wash and cut^^

woohoo!! love tat place liao!!

gg there more often le la!

before gg to see them play

hehe!!

went to Ya Kun there to eat again!!

good memories flow by my mind^^ or rather our mind^^

really love last year and i really love you too

at the bowling there

is like damn cold la!

but den still can da han la!

mandy is like running everywhere

haha!! from dance to prefect, prefect to dance and aso to band

after tat still played the puzzle game on Ms Ng laptop

which is like damn damn small la!!

even smaller in size den our txtbk!!

haha! damn handy la!

Mdm linda's husband damn funny la

took the laptop den accidentally "drop" it {fake de la}

Ms Ng really scream sia LOL!!

her face expression very funny lo

Mr Chua aso very funny today^^

he attract both girls and guys!!

popular guy^^

had so much fun with teachers and prefects friends 2day!!

seeing wei chard the pro keep sparing or striking de

but den sometimes the way he throw is very funny la!!

haha!! for a short time of period keep gg around to take pictures

"risk" my lives taking pics of them

LOL!!

seeing you by my side, seeing u playing.. seeing you toking to me and making fun of me.. im very contented=)imissandloveyou

the prefects played until very fast

the whole game end earlier than the rest

so gt quite some time to rest

needed some time for myself..

so went to the playground with mandy to relax abit...

played on the swing and do abit of rock climbing

the rock climbing very hard lo! alot of the "rocks" is being removed

so damn hard to climb

and den the wall is like tilted out de la!

even harder to climb!

you noe its not abt u want to be or not

is a confirm cannot..

im sry for wat i did in the past.. tats y i hated myself so much...

in the past when i said tat to u.. i actually alr treated u as one..

but when i realised.. i had to stop.. i dun want it to be like tat..

i dun want to see u cry... seeing u cry or hearing u cry is not making me feel any btr too...

u r a friend tat i aso cherish..

every friends i made and my family are part of my life..

losing any one, means losing my life bit by bit...

i dun want to lose u as my friend...

or maybe u r hating me now.. as much as u hate her ba...

i will and never played with you... u noe it btr...

dun wry im not refering to huaiao^^i noe mandy will be reading baLOL!

took alot of group photos of the prefects^^

when finally dismiss

pei mandy and fiona to bus stop

and waited for their bus

now reached home lo! ^^ think i need to take a break...

from all this thinking and missing...

last day of the month but nth has changed...

2008-03-31T21:48:00.002+08:00

things had alr settled between me and mandy...
FINALLY!!^^
well im not sure whether i gained bck her 100%trust in me
well.. strting off 2day was not exactly pleasant...
during morning duty is like alot of bugs around the whole field
anyway wasnt really in the best mood
gossip alot at the field there la
after found out the horrible truth
the things i think so much about on sat was really true...i wasnt my imagination
i really didnt noe tat such thins were bothering u...
i was not obviousing...~~maybe i wasnt a gd friend.. not gd enough..~~
maybe u really shld be angry abt me..butdendunuthinkigtdisappointedinugalsbefore..iloveyougals.soididntsayireallydo
tats y during maths.. i didnt really tok
{sry heimun.. didnt really wanted to make u emo as well}

but during english class
i just couldnt stand it!
when gwen turned around to encourage me
she just said " aiya yuan yi cheer up la"
tears strted filling my eyes and falling down
i couldnt stand it so i just cried in class but with my heads on table
really thanx for concerning for me^^ glad to recieve ur sms.. im happy enough to noe tat u care for me at least for now^^
oh ya! sry kirstale.. almost made u emo too
well.. after a quick slap on my face in the toilet
i was back to my old self again {well at least for awhile}
band 1 went to the elan room to create a account for recording
T_T
lost my password to log in
so end up used qiaoting com to create an account
was like fooling around with nic and qt
and especially with kristale
coz she went to find a video on ghost but end up
it was tat scene of
a guy behind a girl doing the clay vase while the background music
was the
"ooohhh..my love..~
my darling..~
I've hungered for your touch
A long, lonely time"
somemore the video is like more "A" than those who saw in those movies

during recess
cass had the happiness time la!
haha!! she recieved a present from her dearest bf XD
but den i gt the other hand...
even during history was not really the best time
all i ever did in history class was cry...
until when i decided to write a letter la..
which changes the situation for both of us
thanx for keep turning around when u were walking bck to class for geo..^^ i really appreciate it.. hving u care for me like tat i alr think it is enough.. during history lesson.. when cher suddenly said abt promises.. i cant help but think abt u and my friends
during maths and chem
heimun and me keep laughing abt ________ thing
and keep saying we cannot laugh at ____ coz like tat means we like ____
in the diary heimun wrote ILY to me is like gt a big LYY there tat person think wat we writing to him
after sch waited for cass and heimun
they hving band
things gt btr with mandy^^
went to play netball with eugenia,fiona, jas and mandy
LOL! after tat jas even played badminton with mx,lionel and janine
haha! jas is still a pro!
mandy went home earlier lo!
oh ya! end up we decided tat
mandy go treatment ba... and i gg to cut hair with her aso on fri^^
Mandy's dad fetched her home sia!
but end up ltr she called to "complain" to me abt _____
aiyo... dun cry le la!
must rmb wat we said in msn kk
even played bball with jas
walao
the guys keep playing full court
dun even want to give us half court la
always must stop half way de
somemore jasmine's elbow hit my head lo!!
damn pain sia!
we two played until very violent!
LOL!!
after playing bball cannot even concentrate to study
so decide to rest lo!
dunnoe y my mood today go up and down de..
no only 2day but everyday...

sry everyone..

2008-03-28T18:39:00.002+08:00

hey guys
im so sry didnt tok much or actually at all 2day..
srsly in a way bad mood/emo
so so sry to JASMINE,FIONA,AGNES,LILIANG,MANDY,GWEN,HEIMUN and CASS
especially to jasmine,fiona,agnes and liliang
they keep trying to make me laugh
but end up my face is like too stiff to smile
sry gals!! promise next time wont hv this thing happening le
oh ya sry liang, i broke my promise XP
i was enduring all the while in mac... too many things happen ytd and 2day.. it all seems like a dream come true but end up was a dream gone bad.. y r u doing this to me.. and the other one had to add more sadness to me... maybe im btr off without any friends and love... i only bring saddness to everyone i noe... y arent u here with me thru all this... do you noe tat every one of ur sms will either keep me smiling or crying..imissyoualot..can someone just take me away from all this..
ok enough all this emoing le!
today gt quite a few interesting tat happen!
OMG!
today fri means i today PLEDGE TAKER
T_T wa! scared sia!
long long time nv say le!
early morning always hv morning blues de
like tat ask me say pledge T_T
someone every fri is mr tse!
abit scared leh! LOL! somemore mr tse very tall i so short.. very weird
but no choice ma!
must say de! ok i dunnoe whether anyone heard before la
but MR TSE WAS SPEAKING CHINESE
sounded abit weird but was shocking la! didnt noe he could speak after all
he always speak eng! well a nice strt for the morning LOL
think he was scolding a bball girl.. abt wat not sure
after tat he asked me for a pen which was another shock for me

MR TSE:erm... u gt a pen?

ME: yeah but in my bag

MR TSE: can, go get it

ME:oohh!

haha!! something like tat la!

at first stand there not shivering de

after take the pen rite

stand bck there was shivering abit loLOL!! dunnoe wat happen

whole time was like looking at agnes and jasmine

saw mandy aso! rest not really

my heartbeat was getting faster everytime the national song was abt to finish

when my turn tat time.. i think i stopped breathing!!

pathetic rite LOL! in my mind was like faster get it over with!!

after everything mr tse said thank you

i was like HUH?? ok first time... well coz i think i only go up to say pledge like

1 or 2 time nia LOL!!

but den was "interesting" in a way coz of all the funny things tat happen

maybe next fri wont hv such shivering le

coz used to le ma

oh ya no offence or anything^^ actually enjoyed myself coz of this

last nite the msg u send me really send me to the moon.. to the skies..and to the stars but den i fell down as soon as 2day comes... sitting down smsing u.. i could almost cry....think of everything tat gone thru my mind... i can forget everyone around me...

cca was abit funny la

well in the BIG HOT SUN today{really no clouds to block lo}

we were playing games in the parade square!

HOT HOT HOT!

today is the first day sec3 leaders took over{example:nic and sarah! hehe}

and the last day for sec4s T_T

really gg to miss them

well everything has a beginning and ending ba..

played the last games with sec4 which was CAT AND MOUSE

very hard to explain la so just say it like cat running after the mouse la

last person will get forfeit!! hehe a tradition in GB to make people do forfeit

and guess who we sabo!

SARAH CHUA! OUR NEW CL^^

again another recess w/o eating

well.. just say i really hv to pay up all my debts or esle im not gg

to hv enough money to buy presents for birthday babies

^^ today nic was in a gd mood! had fun with her!

but den ps leh nic! ask u take over sec1s and drill stage 1 both

pui hoon and renuka end up nv come!

drill today was like T_T

i really wondering how are they gg to pass

had to put on the very very strict look on them lo!

not wat im used to T_T

but really had to correct them this time

walao!! i still gt alot of things to learn for drill

is like i dunnoe alot of things

most of them is agnes do de

maybe i not fit to be a drill i/c.. haiz

badgework and singaspiration was...hehe^^

joanne gd lo! pull me out to wat demo action for the song

sabo~

had fun^^ we even sang a birthday song to Elaine{sec3 de}

and finally saw sarah chua's forfeit of chicken dance^^

when i saw u again at outside the class.. suddenly all my laughter was gone.. and all the msg just flow pass my mind like a train..finallycriedforthefirsttime..

CL was abit boring la! as usual

walao!! forgot to take $4.50 from my mum!! end up used mine and lent jas aso

there goes my $9 for the day! heng i nv spent on recess

whole time keep doing correction

and cher was so kind as to NOT give us hw for the first time coz of speechday

bell rang, faster went up to art room to take the blazers down to the prefect room

alot sia! waited outside the art room for quite long

Kenneth they all still hvent come yet

nic is like funny la!

she called me to ask me whether im gg anyway

she was at the carpark there while i was up at art room

looking down at her! LOL!!

asked her look up

she go look at the sky! LOL!! think i cannot see!

tot she gg to go tiong with us with jiawen aso but end up dun hv

so everything done le hou

went to find mrs ng first

instead she asked me go find her on tues

need to buy heels for tmr speech day usehering

so faster went to tiong

jasmine,fiona and liliang keep saying wat i walked very fast

very normal liao lo

maybe just abit faster nia

walao! walked the whole of tiong is like dun hv the heels lo! T_T

either dun hv,too exp or dun hv my size

suay rite!

even fiona said so!

so after gt a few bites and was on the way to BM there

to see whether gt luck anot

1st shop:nope

2nd shop: weehee!! finally gt le!! both comfortable and cheap!!

but the most disgusting thing was tat

there were SPIDERS in the shoe box lo!

only until i open at mac when we go find agnes

den noe de lo!!

stupid la!! its like damn disgusting!! not 1 but think gt 3 BIG ones

and few small one! faster took my shoes out

jas helped me throw! thank goodness!!LOL!

~~~~ {dun feel like saying wat happen}

i really didnt expected to hurt mx so much.. went silent after liang picked up mx call for me.. in my mind two things keep flowing and swirling non-stop i endure.. i dun want to cry but when we were leaving mac.. i saw u and the rest of bballers.. i couldnt stand it and ran in the toilet to cry.. sry girls i didnt wanted to..maybe i wwas overreacting... but my mind just went blank on wat to do..

jas decided to go play bball at sch!

so liang took my bball from her home while

we the rest went to sch to so call "book" court first

rent a bball from mr kek

went to find mandy and gwen before

gg to play match with joash and the rest of the boys

our team was fiona,agnes,jas,calvin and me

ltr was only us four girls when we played full court!

liang end up dun want to play T_T

well.. wasnt in a gd mood so didnt really talked

played a little rough 2day

fell down.. gt hit by the ball on my ear{caused of calvin}

and obvioudly my fingers always get bend by a fast ball

lame i noe

walao! lost to the boys by 1 point! end up do 10 pumpings!

just 1 points they do 30 pumpings leh! LOL

too tired to continue

went to slack at the canteen

almost fell asleep at the bench

after like abt 5plus went to mac again coz jas want to do maths

cass and heimun so clever sia

spotted us at mac

reason: my hair and jas face

LOL! but they went home first

we only did afterwards!

well nth much happen after tat

so byebb! hope everything goes smoothly tmr!

im sry mx.. i knew i shld hv told u in the first place.. its all my fault..

mood both happy and sad^^

2008-03-24T16:36:00.004+08:00

haha! weird rite
both happy and sad!!
so not used to go school myself now...
rather to be fetch there T_T
but den my dad needs the car so
when he finish work wont so tired... haii...
reached sch is alr like 7plus am liao lo!
but den last nite too late sleep le..

during the morning duty was quite funny la!
scared like last time like tat mrs de souza come to our duty
place again.. so do our own this time...
abit weird la.. still need to be fierce leh...
not use to it la! even gt people say i fierce lo...
aiyo heck kare liao la.. fierce jiu fierce lo.. is not like im not like tat
LOL XP
OMG! the field really stinks lo!
smell like shit lo! srsly la!
dunnoe y and where it came from
oh ya!!
cheryl and me aso somehow scolded the sec2s prefects
not really scold la just tell
becoz they everytime very late go duty
ask them noe wat time report
they aso dunnoe
everytime stand there do nth
make me and cheryl do everything
with the gate duty people
made me and cheryl damn pissed off la!
they just like stand one corner to tok like tat lo
today dunnnoe for wat reason
mrs yeo send all the teachers{expect for relief and temp teachers}
so end up we go sit at the parade square too
leaving dhurkesh behind at the bench there
doing POA!! LOL!!
he only realised cheryl,fiona,regina and me gone when mrs yeo was like half way
toking!! LOL!!

wasted a whole period of maths coz of mrs yeo..
although it wasnt exactly excited or sort
neither was eng...
sry i didnt noe u were sick
for the whole time in eng period i cant let myself wrying for u
when kristale told me something is wrong with u
i can feel my heart ache specially when mandy confirmed with me tat u r sick..
u noe u were nv out of my mind and head before... although sometimes i really wish u can..
but when i heard tat since ytd u been sick and all u were thinking of is her..
my heart really did broke... and seeing u at the foyer waiting to go home..
i really dun wish to go to history.. i rather stay at my duty place and ensure u go home safe before i go...
noe im really stupid even though it is so obvious tat u dun like me anymore
and confirm just tat the one u wish could sms u is her ba...
well... not smsing u to ask u really make me feel very weird inside
so i did... im glad i did^^ coz this is the very first time u sms me for so long after such a long time
and not in 1 or 2 words anymore^^ but den u r sick... so must rest..
u noe for the whole time during history i was smsing only u
and i keep smiling^^ i really love u alot...but den i noe its over le...
get well soon kk.. i will miss u a whole lot.. not only now but forever and ever since den alr had been missing...
History class was damn funny la!!
cant stop laughing and smiling with heimun!!
hehe!!
heimun i noe u love me^^ coz i love u too!!x333
we laughing coz of renjie and the dunnoe who la
they tok until very funny like wat sunflower seeds
LOL!! and wat gt hair or dun hv hair! LOL!!
den we keep adding on to it... like renjie the hair all go to his moustard{something like tat}
there!LOLXDDD
heimun sure rmb how we laugh de lo!!
ok la noe we alittle bad la!!
abit too much le la!
but really cannot stop laughing on it lo!

the rest of the day was alittle boring to be exact..
haii... gt bck our report bk...
very sad sia! really failed my phy...
first F9 and C5 in my report bk...
dun really feel like saying liao la..
very disappointed...
bad bad 1st term.. haii...

i really miss u lots

come bck to sch soon kk...

reply to xinxin blog^^

2008-03-22T00:40:00.004+08:00

haha!
xinxin thanx for the reply on ur blog
well here is mine for u

sometimes promises really mean the world to people
his almost does
but den think i forget to tell u ba
when he loved me, i did love him bck
only i didnt noe abt it
and maybe didnt want to accept it ba..
everything was really my fault den
but den abt the
THIS KIND OF PROMISES IS ONLY MATURE PEOPLE CAN USE K
haha!! y dun say only mature people can make promiseXP
agree?
hehe

well its official my love life and ur love life is a miserable thing
both places so nice end up become a bad memory
some more interchange i everyday go
now abit become bad memory liao la
LOL!

srsly la xin is i hurt people one lo
i can got at least hurt 2 people liao le....
haha thanx for the encouragement ^^
maybe i was thinking too much le ba
but den sometimes i really hv to admit i stupid and idiotic la
maybe sometimes is i dunnoe how to appreciate people ba

haha!!
u noe i very very long nv hit guys liao lo
if zl really let me hit the hua jiu hao liao lo!!
dun think my so call"brother" will mind ba! LOL

Glad u agreed with me about 2008
ya 8 supposed to be a lucky number but end up
cause so much misery and saddness
would rather be 2007 den 2008
2007 i had almost everything
all my best time
-2e2 which was the bestt
-all the good memories
-and u noe la
but den 2008 is like the total opp.
no much good memories
for all i rmb almost everything was bad
and my class now is like the total opp. of wat my last class was
haii..it tearing down everything

i really hope tat we can skip this year too
i gt the same feeling as u
every day things keep gg around our heads and mind
everyday new and bad things come about
it is worst when u alr hv to think about love or studies
but den we still hv to think abt those empty promises and sort
bad memories keep swirling aroun my head
things and people remind me abt those memories
but den dun ever think abt hurting urself
there is a saying tat liking someone takes 1 sec
loving someone takes 1 min
but forgetting someone takes 1 year
so when u say tat u forget him completely i dun really believe
after all wat u been thru cant be forgotten easily
i cant even forget it till now
i agree with u
its not like we met the guy for like few mins
but is a guy who came in ur life and change it completely
how can we forget it so easily rite
but then they choose to leave us behind
there is nth we can do about it ba
we both of the same feeling
i want to forget everything tat ever happen
best is to go bck to pri sch where there isnt much to worry abt rite..

dun forget laogong^^
even if dun hv him
i will always love u as my laogong^^

good friday

2008-03-21T21:20:00.003+08:00

firstly i want to strt off with
we really didnt mean to do tat
noe wat u mean by not belonging and sort
its not tat we stress or anything..
haii.. we are really sry abt it..
we really hope u can forgive us
i swear on my life tat nth we say is a lie
and everything abt we 5 are always forever friends
is true for every hr, min and sec
im sry for making u feel a sense of non-belonging
and i swear tat it will nv happen again
if it do, hit me hard on the back
and i will understand
i dun want the 5 of us to break our friendship just like this
we been thru 3 yrs of friendship, i dun want it to end
everyone of us is a precious part of each of our life
well to me tats wat i think
i hope u gals feel the same way too..
pls forgive us...

HAPPY EASTERDAY/GOOD FRIDAY
to everyone!
hehe!!
public holiday for all{well..almost all}
at least i noe i can get to rest for a long time
today actually hv to go to my dad's side the family gathering
which is in the afternoon
waited for my parents to wake me up to go
end up they didnt at all
they just let me sleep all the way
so in the end just stayed at home...
watched kids central till like 4plus
oh ya!
2 strangest things happened to me
in the afternoon
yiwei and huai ao toked to me sia
damn shocked
they two hardly even sms me or rather tok to me in sch
suddenly both tok to me out of the blue
these two guys are weird today
abt yiwei leh
^^ glad u decided tat
hope everything goes well
although i was overjoyed abt u toking to me again
but den u made me confused again...wat is ur true feeling?
hehe!! went to see movie again!
walao!! made a wrong decision lo!
we went to vivo lo!! the queue was like damn long!!
all the way till the mini toons there liao lo!!
can u imagine how long must we wait before getting the tickets
plus the tickets was selling fast
confirm get the very front seat or worst dun hv
so skip la!! go great world watch
at least btr la
no queue but den the seats still quite front la
oops forget to say wat movie i watchXP
watched The Spiderwick Chronicle
This show is really quite frightening!!
alot alot of times i was like covering my ears and eyes!!
{ok la, if u r afraid of goblems and sort den is frightening la}
quite alot of part gt like things 'poping' out
so scared me la! but after all a very nice movie to watch^^
only tat after tat i firghten after nv speak niaXP
didnt do much today
happy or sad aso cannot feel leh...
aiya! dunnoe wat i saying le..
getting late le..nitez everyone
someone pls help me clear my tots..
someone pls give me a sign on wat to do...

feelings

2008-03-19T20:12:00.001+08:00

i really feel like running as far as possible now
i really hate the feeling of staying in this pain
i hate the feeling of smiling when i just not feeling happy
i just cant smile when i see him in front of me
when all he think is about her and only her
i been talking to xinxin today about empty promises
empty promises tat guys make to us but i cant forget the promise u made to me
two promises somemore
i really cant stand rmbing tat
tat promises was empty from tthe very beginning
i dun think u even rmb tat promise
at all... tats y u choose to leave
i dun think any girls want to have guys who always made empty promise
to them
maybe is not your fault for making tat empty promise
maybe everything was mine fault in the first place
hurting u countless time
and now it is ur turn ba...
do you noe u hv been giving me cold shoulders ever since tat time
u noe how many times i been crying for u ever since
do u noe i been missing you since den
but i finally gt ur ans...
and tat is enough for me to forget all the gd things
heimun might be right just tat when we walking to the bus stop
but everything u r doing now is proving it wrong...
maybe i really hv to learn to let go and forget..

I REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF
for being such a fool
for hurting people so much
and for being such a cruel person
a loser in everything...
i found out tat even my friends are leaving me...
mandy is somehow drifting apart from me...
i dunnoe y... i just realised it few days ago...
sometimes she not really emo but den when she does..
it really hurts me... seems like mandy lost trust in me or something like tat
or maybe it is because of the way i behave..
she nv tells me y she is sad anymore.. she wont share anything with me..
to her it seems like i cant make her smile de...
only can emo...
when with me hardly will smile...
i cant comfort her when she is sad...dun even noe wat to say
although i only guessing...but i dunnoe leh...
maybe i thinking too much ba.. hope so..
im just useless...an idiotic person tats who i am..
i can just make someone hate me for like in a short period...

just had a quarrel with mx
i just dun understand wat gt me so irritated for the whole day..
wasnt in the mood to laugh or smile or even tok
especiall after he scolded the vulgar word at me thru sms...
all i wanted to do was to hit the hell out of someone!
i tot i clinch my fist so hard till my hands will bleed...
was on the edge of busting and aso on the verge of crying
as in coz of too angry...
i have to admit tat i am very xiao qi.. since young jiu like tat le
every small little thing jiu angry le...
my mind is so confuse now!
whether to hate him coz he scolded vulgar
or not hate him coz it was aso my fault
tok to him or dun tok to him
angry or not angry at him
wat am i exactly feeling now?
i dun even noe!!!

things keep gg around my head ever since i came home
i keep thinking and thinking till my head is gg to burst!
im worried over everything now..
my friends and life..
is all in a mess tat i cant control anymore
i hate to be this emo in my post but i have to at least type out
or i will burst
i wish everything was like how it was in the past
ever since 2008 arrived
every gd things are always attached to bad things
w/o fail...
i dun care who is gg to read this
be it him or my friends
i just hv to get it out of my head
wat hv i been thinking over the past few days
or months!
im sry everyone...

so long nv post

2008-03-14T00:16:00.003+08:00

so long nv post le
but den i gt so many things to say
from the camp recently till today
think easier to tok about today first la
i find tat today very emo like tat leh
especially after the movie...
early in the morning hv to wake up early just to go for
amaths lecture today
so damn rush la!
didnt even have time to eat breakfast
just have a bowl of cereal before rushing down to take the bus
damn!! just when i went down the bus went away
wasted alot of my time lo
interchange aso the same thing!
gt a feeling tat 2day heaven is playing a fool of me!!
every traffic light is always red de lo!! damn rite
a bad way to strt my day
especially when i TOTALLY hate morning
{not a morning person, prefer to sleep in}
so no choice late for the lecture
and was like damn ps to go in la
so wasted like 10plus mins outside before gg in
stupid rite
ok la.. still manage to understand the lecture la
walao! tat gwen keep saying about the romantic princess
dunnoe which one she say is real lorT_T
coz my whole study mood to go down the drain lo
keep thinking about the show
LOL!! emotion kanna affected!

when the whole lecture finally finish
Jasmine,JiaWen,Kristale,Mandy and me went to tiong to catch
The Leap Years again at 4.05
think i wore the wrong shoes liao lo
in the 851 long bus almost did a "spilt"
and almost fell for like 3 or more times lo
haha!! last time didnt really cry coz of the presence of guys around
somemore i gt the principle tat i will not and nv shld i cry in front of my friends
i nv like to cause my friends to emo or sad!
so i want to see today will i cry lo!!
haha! did the same rountine like almost everytime
went to buy food at NTUC even went to other places to walk about la
haha!! saw one of my bro's classmate
working at NTUC! was "serving" us at the counter la
somemore tat mandy and jiawen tot tat guy was gg to hit on me
coz he asked if i rmb him ma
LOL!!
finally went in to watch
nv sat in our right place
move abit forward!
well was a spoiler to mandy for telling her the story la
but if i dun tell her she wont watch rite
as i expected!!
really without boys i can cry like HELL!!
was like so damn embarrass to cry like tat in front of my friends la
but i really really wanted to cry so much lo
if in the middle of the movie was 1 hr de hua
means i cried for 1 hr coz strted to cry in the middle of the movie
but i cannot stand it lo
THANX SO MUCH JAS!
she lent me her shoulders to cry!
even help me to get tissue leh!^^ and cheer me up somemore!!
mandy and jas were like finding lots of way to make me laugh
by doing stupid things^^XD
coz i still cried even after the credits
haha!! and mandy, jiawen and kristale for comforting me^^
the actual reason y i cry was coz of him
been thinking of him the whole time when watching the movie
the promises and everything
tats y i couldnt stop crying even after tat...
when i hugged mandy i wanted to cry more.. but i knew he was not the only one i tot when watching the movie
i aso gt think of mx.. i aso dunnoe y...
walao!! cry until my whole eyes turn red siaX_X
somemore still saw nic,sarah,joanne,agnes and qt!!
damn ps lo!!
mandy still say wat i scared her coz first time see me cry until so cham
{well mandy get used to it XD}
went to more than words coz jas is buying jiawen's gift for their anniversary!!
so gd lo!! LOL!
wanted to take neoprint
but den pocket broke liao!!
LOL
on the way home aso not tat happy la...
emoing lo..
somemore keep getting in the rain
even slipped on the staircase while walking down..
lucky nv slip all the way down
still pain lo!
tot will get fever but end up nv la
gt someone to accompay me to tok all the way home
HAHA! chen ming xing is seriously a pig lo!!
slept until 6plus today!!
pig rite!!LOL!!
kk la!! dun disturb le la..

recently been thinking about alot of things
keep crying over and over again these few days
but now den i realised how stupid i was
promises are meant to be broken..
empty promises are wat tat is left in love
can someone please prove me wrong
i noe alot of people who gt their heart broken
doesnt like the word "forever"
coz everytime when someone used the word forever
it always lead to an empty promise
but then
we shld not hate the word forever coz it does not need to be only in love
it can aso used for friendship and family
only love den need forever meh
friendship and family too wat rite!!
plus we dunnoe whether in the future are we gg to meet btr people to love
so dun hate it so fast just coz of a broken relationship
just treat it as a rubbish being said by the wrong person u found
as ur so call other part
after all
"it's better to be loved and lost than never to be loved at all"
a word of advice from me to people who are thinking alot of things:
dun wry/fan for wat is in the future or either wat is gg to come
coz it might not happen and might not exist
even if it do exist, it coming anyway so face it with a diff. perpestive!

"About the nature of relationships.
The Buddha believed whenever a person enters you life, you should
welcome them and enjoy whatever it is they bring,even it it's only for
a short time. Then, when it's time for them to go away, you shouldn't take
it as a rejection,because when a person leaves your life, it has nothing to do
with you. It's simply time for them to leave."
do you believe?
"well i think the Buddha's example takes a rather one-sided view of relationships.
For instance, there's a difference between when a person voluntarily leaves your life,
and when a person has been deliberately driven away."
which do you believe?
quote from The Frog Prince by Gillian McKnight
{xin, thanx for lending me the book! its prefect^^}

TAN ZHEN LIANG JEALOUS

2008-03-02T18:23:00.003+08:00

haha!!
just now tan zhen liang jealous sia
saw i write my feelings for my 6 bestie friends
nv write about him la!!
haha he want me to love him la!!
LOL as if lor!! he only need ****
cannot say the name or else someone emo!!
kk la!!
let me write about him ba!!

Tan Zhen Liang
haha!! kk la!! my only guy best friend
arent you lucky to be my only guy best friend
haha!! must feel honoured kk
ok.. seriously dun be so play boy anymore kk
be more serious in love ba
dun so easily give up on her la!!
haha!! let her noe u really really like her!!
u btr take kare of urself kk
and must tell me all about ur love life
like xinxin!!
must bond more!!
tahnx for being my best guy friend
although last time i keep bullying u
but aat least we gt alot of fun rite!^^
haha! "love u la" as a friend of coz!!
LOL

Tan Zhen Liang hving fever

2008-03-02T16:29:00.003+08:00

ok!! 2day my three best friends
Xin Xin, Agnes and Zhen Liang are suppose to come my house
but end up only xinxin and zl came!
xin was the first one to come my house
chitchat about alot of things espexially about her first love
and abt him
now i almost noe all abt xinxin first love le la!
she aso noe abt mine aso
so we are fair
the only one tat is not fair is AGNES ANG!!
coz end up she nv come my house! tution till 5.30
cant even go watch movie with xinxin
ps both of us lo!!
zl aso almost ps us but he gt valid reason
he is SICK!!
in the phone he say wat gt lung infection lo!! scared the hell of us
but end up he still come!
^^ he so gd rite
haha!! bbut he really sound very sick leh!
coughing so badly and still wat very giddy like tat

three of us met at 7-11 to buy things to eat
zl end up buy porridge, btr for his health
went up home, keep playing his psp lo
eat aso dun want but still gt finish la! think after about 1 hr or so den finish
was watching this movie at channel 62 so cal abt love de la
but someone abit affected seeing the "couples" like tat
so nv watch finish jiu switch off le
zl took a nap asked us 30mins ltr wake him up
so ok lo..
chatted on the phone with liliang and ming xing
while using my new laptopXP
while xinxin is beside me using the computer
haha!! she is SO in love with me and my pictures
LOL!!
so we decided to get married
{one reason is tat i can so call do house work la! cut the apple for her ma}
haha!! so from now on
im xinxin's wife and xinxin is my laogong le!!
hehe!!
but den when we go checked on zl tat time
he was like shaking leh!!
omg!! he hving fever liao lor
man!! blaming myself for it la!
at first he dun hv de lo
but anyway
ask my mum for help
so let him eat fever medicine, before letting him lay down on the sofa
fu de cold towel on his head and neck so tat can cool down de fever
his temp is 38.6 lo
feeling so guilty sia
for the time being, he is sleeping la..
me and xinxin become his personal nurse

helping him too cool down his fever
ltr better to send him home
he just now said ytd fever tat time almost fainted on the way home
well who ask now he become my so call brother
my mum say one wat! HAHA!!
kk la!! btr go attend to him now
feeling abit guilty about asking him to come even though he is still sick

just now my laogong jealous sia
see me attend to zl
haha!! sae what she aso want to sick so i can attend to her!!
haha!! she love me too much le! XP
{bhbing}
so now he is awake and still alive
but still hving fever
now im worried about my best friend le!!
oh ya! actually wanted to take a pic of him but den
since he is sick den dun take lor!!
but seriously he look quite handsome at that time
first time see him sleeping sia
but den he look very xin ku lor!
he afterwards still say wat den clinic gt open anot
noow den decided to see doc
hai...
worry for him! but think he will be ok de la
he so "strong"

i missing him every single second