not wat i expected...
Firstly i will like to thanx

Heimun, Gwen, Mandy, JiaWen, Jasmine
Agnes,LiLiang and Nicole


for comforting me today
plus definately not to forget

Laogong who hv always been with me since everything happened
and a BIG SORRY to everyone for not saying anything
i expecially want to thanx

MANDY and LAOGONG
for being there to listen and comforting so much
mandy, really thanx for listening and giving advice
its gd tat i hv such a friend like u!
and laogong,
im sry...
i couldnt take gd care of u....
coz of my own selfishness
i didnt even notice tat u were not feeling well
just coz im not in a very gd mood...
sry...
couldnt take proper care of u
lucky u r btr now..


i didnt expect things to be like tat..
all i wanted was....
now i noe..
i cry the most for my family..
i cant bare to even leave them... i dun even noe wat to do..
from a point i really wanted to ......
i just dun believe tat such a thing will happen..
strting to hate number 28
from now on
i swear i wont ask for more anymore...

things gone wrong...

LiLiang- hey mummi , just went to read ur blog
u hor dun always haiz le la
must be like nic papa and me always be happy
noe its hard but try
anyway im really sry tat nowadays dun hv tat much time to pei u tok like last time
or pei u go out like last time le but den i will always still be there for u
dun u forget tat k! ^^ happy tat mummi like nuer so much! haha love u lots <333>

Laogong- laogong.. really sry abt today
seems like im not as a gd laopo as u said
but wont happen again i swear
thanx for always staying by my side even when i do wrong
i really love u a whole lots ^^ muackz!!
p.s : u alr is a DAMN GD AND PRO laogong le! dun always say urself bad can^^ promise k !

Heimun-ah mun ar!! u take care of urself k, recover from ur fever soon, drink more water!^^ love u!

wake up damn early 2day for GB
like normal weekday lo
sian.. -.-
but for drill hv to de la
so as usual kanna punish for being late
anyway learn new things
in a way is old la! coz learn once before
but is for refreshing memory ar^^
had fun and was tiring la
oh ya
LIANG! thanx for learning me ur boots!!
so after everything went to go tok tok and eat with liang
before gg to find laogong as usual^^
things gone wrong
when i always say something wrong
im sry... nv shld hv doubt..
thanx for forgiving
went home tat time say
a bunch of bastards sia
keep asking me to go over to them
and saying GB GB
if my mood was anymore bad!
would hv scolded them
I LOVE NIGHT BREEZE so cooling
was around my area there de open area alr hv a nice breeze and nice skyview
it would be so much nicer if i was at east coast at nite with laogong^^
one of my dreams and wishes
one of my biggest wish are
___________________ & ________________
hehe my secret^^
there are people who noes abt it
but i dun think anyone is interested to noe
who would want to read my blog anyway
expect for my friends la!
hmm... wonder wats instore for me tmr
signing out for now! BYE!

i dun even want to think of leaving u... sry tat i almost did it today...
dun even noe wat the hell i was thinking tat time... gome....
kk... enough of gome for today....


Mandy's birthday party
haha!^^
here are some of the photos from mandy's birthday party
only manage to take some photos
not alot
coz end up need to go bck early
so here goes


LOL! joash lose the game and hv to stuff as many mashmallow in his mouth
gg to say the word "rubber ducky" LOL XD
birthday girl and me^^ finally let me take a pic le
gwen gwen^^
LOL! candid shot sia! but i forgot whose hand was tat! look at jas eyes XD


finally smile^^


things became...
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Laogong<333- noe laogong will nv leave me alone de la! and i promise.. erm no... swear and cross my heart tat i wont NV EVER leave ur side k, u will nv nv nv be alone no matter wat happen i promise to be by ur side^^ so always think of me k..^^ love u lots lots till eternity

Mandy- YO!! haha!! thanx for understanding ^^ glad tat i was the VERY FIRST to sms u just in time on 00:00on ur birthday! always wanted to be the first to do so!ah man ar! no matter wat turn to us to lean on k!u noe we will always be there for u when u wanted^^haha! yup im still young! XP
birthday sure need birthday song plus a special present de ar^^LOVE YOU LOTS! <333>

Xinxin- haha!! ya ya! finally update le la! ps now adays more busy!^^ haha! p3 den noe u de leh!! haha i been loving u lots lots since pri sch^^ dun scam me le hor! haha love and miss u lots! <333>

Agnes!- of coz i miss u ar! hello how long we nv see each other le, everytime cannot meet up with each other de!! hurry one day u, xin and zl come my house la! want play mahjong aso de leh XP

Gwen & Heimun- haha!! ah mun's pic nice rite! gwen will aso gt the same^^ love u two<333>

Joanne- wa! dun candid me le la! always candid people de la! DUN U DARE POST HOR!!! dun post tat pic hor!!

RuiYi- haha! thanx for ur tags everytime=)

Vanessa & Sangeetha- relink and link both of u le =)

ok!
so many things happened in the week
between friends and love

things became alot worst den before...
there's alot of things i want to say



to my 4 best friends: u noe i will always love u gals de, nth will tear our friendship apart
and i can promise u tat even if now i hv laogong, nth much will change..
kk i can only say tat i wont be tat free all the time
i really hope tat u all will understand
i noe tat gwen, heimun and mandy alr accepted it but cass... srsly these days i dunnoe wat happenings
y all of the sudden u dun like mx when in the past u were so ok with us being together...

i noe tat u alr dun like me alr, and everytime will say things like not liking me and sort...
in the past i will treat it as i heard nth happened but till today i really cant stand it sia..
srsly i dun want to quarrel...
u r still my best friend no matter wat but den y cant u just accept..
or y everytime u not happy with me
u wont find me straight y must i go find out myself den i noe wats happening....
is not i dun want to find u to tell u wat i bu man
but is u dun even want to admit to me how can i go find u sia..
i wanted for u to say thru to me
but instead u r only showing me attitude whenever u not happy with me,
i noe ur attitude i understand but this time is way too much...
oh ya abt ur blog post once.. i alr know abt it... the one u not happy with me de
since u so unhappy with me pls just come straight to me to tell me..
i dun want to hear it thru rumors and stuff... or me just guessing...
im not any happier when things turn out this way....


Laogong : ^^ u noe u always been there for me whenever i need u de!!
and i will do the same, no matter wat i will be by ur side,
no matter it is thru thick or thin..
like u say since we stead there is lots of problems..
and most of the time we cant find the answer to those problems
and definately things tat happened today i cant help u with it
only can be by ur side and cannot even comfort u much..
even trying to make u smile and laugh from ur heart truly, was hard...
but laogong u noe srsly leh
ur smile and laughter can take away all my troubles
ur voice can make me calm down from any anger
u will always say the right words that can let me be so happy tat i could cry..
plus ur hugs can really make me feel secure and safe..
just u by my side is alr everything le
k.. maybe its becoming too mushy..
but srsly...
dun ever say u r alone le can ma...
i noe i might not be such a gd laopo yet
but i noe definately u r a VERY gd laogong le
so dun keep blaming urself or putting on a fake mask like i did before
rmb wat we promise just now ^^
no matter wat i will be there for u de, this i swear!!
love u till eternity....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMAN!!

haha!!
surprise ma? put this pic^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
MANDY SOON HUI LING
MY BESTIE FRIEND <333
celebrated mandy's birthday ytd
went to her party organised by her church cell group
at queensway there
although didnt managed to stay for the whole day
end up went outing with my mum
sry abt it ah man!!
anyway had so much fun there!
was damn similar to Gb parties de lo!!^^
anyway here i would like to sing a birthday song for mandy!
(please pretend infront of u gt cake and present XP)
OHHHhhh..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU)
THERE'S LIONS AND TIGERS(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMAN)
AND THE MONKEYS LOVE YOU(HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU)
^^ hope its enough to make u happy and smile^^
LOVE U LOTS <333
may all ur wishes come true, stay happy forever kk^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHMUN!!
surprise ma?! XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY

SUM HEI MUN aka
PARTNER FOR LIFE/
HAO GER MEN/
WO DE TIAN GE/
ZHONG JI TIE KE REN and
WO MEN DE LAO DA!!<333
haha! finally count down to ur birthday le!

here a song delicate just for u
ooohhhh.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U
U R BORN IN THE ZOO (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U)
THERE'S LIONS AND TIGERS (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HEI MUN)
AND THE MONKEYS LOVE U!! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!)
haha! surprise ma?
XD
anyway!
im here to wish u a happy birthday
collect lots of gift and eat lots of cakes till ur button burst XD
may all ur wishes come true
and for our friendship to stay together forever and strong^^
once again HAPPY BIRTHDAY!



thanx for always being by my side
love u lots and lots!!<333
to my best friend ah mun^^


useless...
feel very useless sia...
now he is sick
i aso cannot do anything..
only can pei by his side....
and dan xin...
is tat all i can do...
really wish i can do more..


somemore
everytime make him angry..
aso dunnoe the reason...
everytime he angry or sad, my heart like shattered...
really feel very useless lo
cannot even make him happy..
plus dun even noe the reason..
and i realised most of the time
i cannot really make him laugh..
just now i keep asking myself..
how much do i know him...
he knows wat im thinking
and he knows wat i like.. but me..
i cant even read wat he is thinking..
take me so long to realise tat he is angry..
not like him..
always noe wat im thinking,
and always noe when sometime is wrong...
useless sia...
im so useless...
im not doing a gd job as a stead...
damn...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ZL
haha!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
TAN ZHEN LIANG!!!
MY KOR! XP

hehe!! ps ps!
now den post!!
didnt even sms him sia XP
zl ps!!
own u ur present first k XD
happy birthday again!

happy birthday cass and christabel!
^^ ps no christabel photo
only hv cass's pic! surprise ma? XP late post
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 15TH
TO BELOVED CASS and aso to CHRISTABEL!!
may all ur wishes come true! stay happy forever!
love cass as my bestfriend!
may our friendship last forever and strong^^
thanx for always being there
love u lots lots <333
and christabel as my gdfriend too!!=)


okok..
i recently dunnoe wat to blog sia
today abit sian sia!
coz laogong nv come sch
he sick
worried sia...
everyday will sure worrried for him de
but btr like tat ba^^
dun really noe how to take care of someone
but trying my very best
wondering if im doing a gd job on it...


today is aso NCC day plus where hongkong students
come to sch for two days too
everything held in the hall
so crowded!
so long nv been to the hall with the whole sch le!
so wasted like 1 period of eng
which was gd!
dun really like the new eng cher
i can just describe the rest of the sch
as BORING
but at least Heimun, Gwen and Mandy are bck in class
to pei me once again!
the FT period was still ok la
had fun watching the I Am Not Stupid 2
although only clips of it!
but still sch is boring sia
especially when i noe laogong not around in sch...
makes it more sian...


first thing to settle after sch was the GB thing
wonder if they could meet us early
seniors say they wanted to tok to us
but end up no
ok so it was such a pleasant tok as we expected
and i really guess tio abt wat we gg to tok abt
so long long "tok" we had
until i felt abit sick
really sick hor
dunnoe
weird weird de XP
hurried over to his house
had so less time there lo!
GB tok take up too much time
but it was a worth tok
laogong: really really sry! hai ni dan xin le! hai shi pian ni le.. dui bu qi!!
with him around is so much btr
without him aorund, feels like a bore...
oh ya
liang relax la!
noe u not really happy abt wat happened
but still LAX LA!


haiizz
my grandma admitted to the hospital again..
worried for her and my mum...
guess we need to be self prepared le
shes getting weaker by day...




another 16 more days

i love you always