a terrible sunday
ok today is terrible...
my mood defintely went down the drain
since when did so many things happen to me i aso dunnoe..
since when did i bring so much pain and hurt to someone i aso dunnoe...
de only thing i know is how a horrible person i became
these past few months
xinxin... i really dunnoe whether if i can become like u anot..
become someone tat strong as u...
i really feel like giving my life.. den to forever stay in this kind of life can i?
i feel like giving him up.. giving up the past tat i had with him...
i feel like stoping bring hurt to both of them...but everytime i fail to do so..
am i a failure in everything? maybe i really am...
i just hate myself...
i feel so useless...
wat do we hv to do to keep living our lives this way...
people say tat as people grow up, there will be more dun hv in our life..
but it coz of this kind of dun hv where we strt to grow strong for ourselves
and find courage..
is this true....