i just cant believe it..
can u hear me shouting i love you now..?
today is like -.-
coz today quarrel with laogong the most la
and somemore
first time scream at him
so ya its -.-
but of coz after tat was ^^ le
always love him no matter wat de^^ coz he is forever my laogong!
was another tiring and frustrating day.. plus another moody day cant believe tat tat was the secret..i hoped at tat time i guess wrongly but guess i cant deny the fact rite...
frustrated coz we two quarrel la
tiring coz damn long day
had a final rehearsal for ndp at 4pm with nic
so like damn long day
somemore today hv chem and ss test.. stress
i just want to hv a break from sch sometimes...
feel like not coming sch tmr..
really tired sia..
I WANT A BREAK!!
haha! XD too over le!!
nth much really happen today
beside hving to change our sitting arrangement in the morning
lucky still can see him XP
feels weird to sit so "in" this time
sec1 and 2 de shi hua always more "out" de
need time to get use to it actually i nv mention it but when i guess it.. i feel my heart pain again..like tat time i heard he like qt.. its the same feeling.. plus damn lot of heat escape from my body.. and all i wanted to do is cry..but i cant coz i dun want to hurt mandy.. so hv to live on without regreting..

Liliang- thanx for being there for me when needed! u r always always there! thanx mumm, i cant even hide my feelings from u, coz u noe me so well! love u so so much <333

Mandy- ah man ar! promise me no more feeling guilty k! im fine srsly, no need u to trust me or anything but just believe me k^^ will be waiting to hear the rest of the story plus my ears r still open and my shoulder r still waiting if u need to lean on k^^love u forever, no hate srsly!^^ <333

Nicole- surprise ma? LOL XD just want to thank u for being there for me too!^^ i noe le la! wont argue with him le! we must 有难同当 有福同享 something like tat la XD haha love u!!<333

till now i hv to let go no matter how much pain it needs for me to handle coz mandy, you r the one meant for him tat is srsly so much btr den me.. coz all i do is hurt him..now i noe its not becoz he scared of relationship and love tats y he dun want give me a chance.. rather is coz he liked u but didnt noe himself.. i dun blame no one but just myself for being the fool of not treating him well.. no worries now le.. i will let go for the sake of mandy, him and laogong..because i shld hv long ago.. plus im really fine very fine with the fact tat mandy like him coz im all along fine with her being around him, no matter as friend, brother or bgr.. stay happy both of u.. get together soon